The day when its dark.
Never after you bring light to me.
The day when you cry.
Never after you meet me.
The day when I am down.
Never after you miss me.
The day never comes.
Never after I say you can trust me.
No matter how you feel.
Never after your heart is with me.
To you
I am willing.
For you
There is no more hiding.
I can stand the pain
Never after I say I need you beside me.
The ending of the road
Not after I found a turning which you brought to me.
I see you smile , touch and laughter
Once from the day I called you baby.
Holding you along
It makes me.
The emotional you and I have in our heart
It really means.
If I promise you again
As well as promise to myself
I will still tell all of them : I Love You
Even one day you say you hate me.
Whatever they said
I will prove to all of them by time.
I share all the emotion with you
Even if it is pain.
Remember everything we have said
When the time we both said : I rather be the one.. I will not let anything happen to you.
Because in my eyes
There is only you.
Give me all your tears
If it can makes you happy.
Give you all my love and promises
If it can make you touching.
Without you I just can't think
Because you mean everything to me.
Telling you everything
Hugging you until the second I can't even kiss.
They may think I am
They said that I am.
Even if I said something wrong to you
The things which I do makes you worried.
My heart are still the same
From the minutes I hold you face with deep breath.
Your faces are still red
Your smell are still the same.
I may not be enough
Rather be the best.
Maybe I am blur
Standing outside the fitting room holding your bag.
But my head are still imagining
When you are in the white dress.
Waking late at night
Making sure our dishes are ready and never turned bad.
Keep telling I want to take you as my wife
Still there are years away.
Giving everything I could
To make everything we want to our way.
To make you feel relax
Even the time I can't feel my heart is beeping.
I want to write everything down
When it is late and I can't hold up my head.
For all and all
For you the only baby.
I don't get to know what will be there tomorrow
Having love or even hate you to me.
What I said
What I means
The day I told you I will sitting in the park waiting for you even I am 80
And there is someone else holding you in your wedding.
I love you.
Baby.
I love you.
I am willing....
2009年10月28日星期三
To the Nameless One..
Good to hear from you and thanks for all the comment. It is caring and is lovely.
Hope you will settle you stuff fast and get to view my blog again. Well, haha, I won't wanna lose a friend. Lol.
Me and my love one are doing fine and well. Thanks for the blessing. She is very nice to me, caring, good personality and understanding. No worries, my friend.
Well, even I feel kinda weird and empty without you view my blog for sometimes.. But still, I have to want you to take good care. As i always say, " relax". ha ha.
I still don't know who you are. And as last time, maybe I still think that I don't need to know who you actually are, " It is just someone I knew".
My friend, may God bless you in everything you do. Really really hope you will be fine and back as soon as possible. All the best to you too. Seecya.
Hope you will settle you stuff fast and get to view my blog again. Well, haha, I won't wanna lose a friend. Lol.
Me and my love one are doing fine and well. Thanks for the blessing. She is very nice to me, caring, good personality and understanding. No worries, my friend.
Well, even I feel kinda weird and empty without you view my blog for sometimes.. But still, I have to want you to take good care. As i always say, " relax". ha ha.
I still don't know who you are. And as last time, maybe I still think that I don't need to know who you actually are, " It is just someone I knew".
My friend, may God bless you in everything you do. Really really hope you will be fine and back as soon as possible. All the best to you too. Seecya.
2009年10月27日星期二
The Perfect of the Inperfection
In the world we hope to have a great appearance. Some of them have it, some of them don't. And even some of us complain about our own appearance, or some of us are not confidence at all with it.
Nowadays, there are new movies telling that maybe in future, we can use robot to replace we ourselves, with perfect figure , perfect body, perfect look , perfect talent and perfect condition. Or maybe biological research find out that there is way to make human immortality so and so.
Talking about finding a hot guy or a sexy girl to fell in love with?
Yeah , that will be great.
But how long can beauty stay up to?
Human don't need that, we don't need that exactly. Most of us is not perfect. Take me for example, I am kinda skinny. Lol... I may want to have a strong muscular body. A girl may want to have a hot sexy body figure, at else I thought.
Not until I meet a special someone. She is pretty, sexy, nice body figure and a sweetest smile. One that I can't even believe that I am with her now. I was thinking like, How can she accept me as another part of her.
But once I am with her, she care about me, know about me and make me see many things clear.
You are actually kinda good looking.
You are very caring.
You are very good at comfort me and make me laugh.
You always make me feel sweet.
You are a good listener when I need you.
You take me seriously.
All the things she told me.....
I guess this is the best part, just because no one in the world can be perfect.
But for me and her, we both are perfect for each other, better than anyone else.
Holding her hand make me feel on the top of the world.
Being to miss her even minutes after leaving her house.
Feeling comfort hugging her heart while sleep.
That's the only way I guess human can be perfect.
Its funny. The main word I name in blogs can't be use by human but created by human themselves.
Actually it can. We human just need to change its form.
In my heart, you are perfect darling..
Loving you, makes me perfect..
Nowadays, there are new movies telling that maybe in future, we can use robot to replace we ourselves, with perfect figure , perfect body, perfect look , perfect talent and perfect condition. Or maybe biological research find out that there is way to make human immortality so and so.
Talking about finding a hot guy or a sexy girl to fell in love with?
Yeah , that will be great.
But how long can beauty stay up to?
Human don't need that, we don't need that exactly. Most of us is not perfect. Take me for example, I am kinda skinny. Lol... I may want to have a strong muscular body. A girl may want to have a hot sexy body figure, at else I thought.
Not until I meet a special someone. She is pretty, sexy, nice body figure and a sweetest smile. One that I can't even believe that I am with her now. I was thinking like, How can she accept me as another part of her.
But once I am with her, she care about me, know about me and make me see many things clear.
You are actually kinda good looking.
You are very caring.
You are very good at comfort me and make me laugh.
You always make me feel sweet.
You are a good listener when I need you.
You take me seriously.
All the things she told me.....
I guess this is the best part, just because no one in the world can be perfect.
But for me and her, we both are perfect for each other, better than anyone else.
Holding her hand make me feel on the top of the world.
Being to miss her even minutes after leaving her house.
Feeling comfort hugging her heart while sleep.
That's the only way I guess human can be perfect.
Its funny. The main word I name in blogs can't be use by human but created by human themselves.
Actually it can. We human just need to change its form.
In my heart, you are perfect darling..
Loving you, makes me perfect..
2009年10月24日星期六
The Eternity
If I have soul. It will not be mine anymore. It is taken away. If I awake one night. It will be cold than any other day. It is lonely.
How can I get to own you? How can I get to hold your hands always?
Human can't go against nature flow. Even if we say fate never decide everything. When we come into life, we try to grab as much as we can without realizing we will lost all of them one day.
If we have soul. I guess it will be the only thing carry on after the last day. It never ends.
They say reality is more important than imaging funny ideas and unreachable dreams. And some of them even try to remember sweet ideas and remarkable nice dreams. Yeah. It may sound a waste of time. But the one without it is even worse.
If we have dreams. I guess it will be the only thing hold you to rest well. Never want to go away if you're in it.
How long is life?
It will be just the remaining amount of breath we can take. Or sometimes some of them don't even get to.
If we are breathing. I guess it will be the luckiest thing which is happening to you. I am breathing with you.
How difficult to us to live on our life?
There will be depression, difficulties, tension, reality, way of surviving. Fighting for power. Defensing ourselves. Protect our loves one. Going against fate which we don't like to be controlled.
If we live in hard life. I guess it will be the only thing to keep and make us stronger and fearless. I am living with you.
May I get to keep something, hold on to something or love something; until the last second of me.
We human make the word "Eternity", which means things never go to an end.
But we don't get to use the word, cause we know nothing will be.
To everyone who read this post, try to think about it.
smile~ For me. She let me realize that there is eternal, falling deep in our heart, we will be eternal for each other.
Letting our heart to lead us isn't so bad. At least I am living better than other days now.
If I have soul. It will not be mine anymore. It is taken by you. If I awake one night. It will be cool than any other day. Because I am missing you.
If there is a chances for me to use the word eternity. I would have to say.
I love you.
2009年10月20日星期二
Temperature..
The day when I hold you.
Every moment I stick to you.
Every time you are with me.
Every second I miss you.
Every week when I meet you.
Every feeling I though of you.
Every touch I had from you.
Every minutes I say I love you.
Every words I message you.
The heart I gave you.
Every comfort you gave me.
Every senses we kissed.
Every strong bang I had in my heart for you.
Every thing I done for you.
The only one is you.
Every fingers we hold together.
Every places I went with you.
Every promise I promised you.
Every imagining future I had for you.
Every phone call I said I want to marry you.
Every morning texting with you.
Every journey along with you.
Every way I get you.
Every coming years I will be with you.
Every red faces I saw you.
Every night I need you.
The lips which I hunger of you.
Every thing I do with you.
Every meal I ate with you.
Every occasion I bring along you.
Every plan we want to do.
Every sentences I told you.
Every sanitizer I took from you.
Every crush me to you.
Every song I play for you.
Every secret I share with you.
Every present I gave you.
Every blog I wrote about you.
Every dream which having you.
Every luck I wished you.
Every train I waited for you.
Every jokes I tell you.
Every tales I talk bout you.
Every movie hugging you.
Every Gami Bear tasted with you.
Every understanding I had from you.
Every confidence gave by you.
Every remarkable memory when taking photo of you.
The madness increase in body temperature having you.
Lou por. I love you.
Every moment I stick to you.
Every time you are with me.
Every second I miss you.
Every week when I meet you.
Every feeling I though of you.
Every touch I had from you.
Every minutes I say I love you.
Every words I message you.
The heart I gave you.
Every comfort you gave me.
Every senses we kissed.
Every strong bang I had in my heart for you.
Every thing I done for you.
The only one is you.
Every fingers we hold together.
Every places I went with you.
Every promise I promised you.
Every imagining future I had for you.
Every phone call I said I want to marry you.
Every morning texting with you.
Every journey along with you.
Every way I get you.
Every coming years I will be with you.
Every red faces I saw you.
Every night I need you.
The lips which I hunger of you.
Every thing I do with you.
Every meal I ate with you.
Every occasion I bring along you.
Every plan we want to do.
Every sentences I told you.
Every sanitizer I took from you.
Every crush me to you.
Every song I play for you.
Every secret I share with you.
Every present I gave you.
Every blog I wrote about you.
Every dream which having you.
Every luck I wished you.
Every train I waited for you.
Every jokes I tell you.
Every tales I talk bout you.
Every movie hugging you.
Every Gami Bear tasted with you.
Every understanding I had from you.
Every confidence gave by you.
Every remarkable memory when taking photo of you.
The madness increase in body temperature having you.
Lou por. I love you.
2009年10月19日星期一
2009年10月18日星期日
The Special 19.
The day which things begin. My day became more meaningful day by day. My sun on the sky seem more brighter, and even it rains, feeling like the cold wind flows in to my heart to make me feel comfort.
The day which emotional happens. The restaurant gave me a personal space. Having warm lights with a sense of darkness. A special feeling when I touched. It is warm, like tears of someone come down through her face. Like there was no spaces between both of us.
The day which I slow down my steps. The path seems to became longer then ever. For the first time I wish the way I walked never end. My hands required strength to hold.
The day which I always keep my eyes close. As if I don't need them anymore. I can feel the heart beats, I can feel the breath. I can feel the touches, and increasing temperature.
The day which I became to have 2 personality. Which separated miles away. Took care by someone who thinks the same way with me. I don't feel lonely anymore days go by.
The day which I am singing new song in my heart every night before I sleep, or get to sleep. I love the tempo; like the stars are singing for me too.
The day which I can't stop laughing. Smiling putted on my face the whole day. Acting crazy and madness. Guess same goes to the one who understand my heart. smile....
The day which I change my hair style the other day. My friends, for the first time, yeah, I cut my hair. Hope you all will like it, well.. I love it.
The day too.. which I get injures on my body. Marks every way. Seems like bleeding. It hurts .. it hurts a lot..
There will be lots and lots of 19th coming along my life. And I want as such 19 as I can. That is a promise. For all the touches my feel, all the comfort, all the warmness.. for the eternally, there will be a 19 ahead.
May i hold U Always next Xmas.
The day which emotional happens. The restaurant gave me a personal space. Having warm lights with a sense of darkness. A special feeling when I touched. It is warm, like tears of someone come down through her face. Like there was no spaces between both of us.
The day which I slow down my steps. The path seems to became longer then ever. For the first time I wish the way I walked never end. My hands required strength to hold.
The day which I always keep my eyes close. As if I don't need them anymore. I can feel the heart beats, I can feel the breath. I can feel the touches, and increasing temperature.
The day which I became to have 2 personality. Which separated miles away. Took care by someone who thinks the same way with me. I don't feel lonely anymore days go by.
The day which I am singing new song in my heart every night before I sleep, or get to sleep. I love the tempo; like the stars are singing for me too.
The day which I can't stop laughing. Smiling putted on my face the whole day. Acting crazy and madness. Guess same goes to the one who understand my heart. smile....
The day which I change my hair style the other day. My friends, for the first time, yeah, I cut my hair. Hope you all will like it, well.. I love it.
The day too.. which I get injures on my body. Marks every way. Seems like bleeding. It hurts .. it hurts a lot..
There will be lots and lots of 19th coming along my life. And I want as such 19 as I can. That is a promise. For all the touches my feel, all the comfort, all the warmness.. for the eternally, there will be a 19 ahead.
May i hold U Always next Xmas.
2009年9月24日星期四
You took my heart away
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2009年9月23日星期三
Telling~ Knowing~
Human get to know thing when, they knew things, they saw things. But for know from others, the only get to know by listening. Which means someone need to tell another one to let him or her know.
" Bu-shit. There is no use even I tell her. "
" There will no be a good ending, forget it , i Don't wanna tell him. "
" I love her, but she already have a boyfriend, so i guess i just wait..."
" There is no need for me to tell, i will just follow the flow.."
People will come out with funny thinking.
Or some of them , wish to let him/her to know , wish to tell but dare not, korean drama style, and still wrote things indirectly on blog wish that him/her will accidently find out?
oh dear god~
Why can we just, okay , i will suggest to the one who really are the type of people that i wrote about above, to go to the cinema, watch the movie call " The Ugly Truth".
swt...
Right , Serious. Same goes to guys and girls, what is the worst thing in life? It is nothing more than having something in your heart which you wanted to tell someone but you don't or dare not and hurt you badly.. or madly maybe. You can't even do anything else more, you can't concentrate, you are no on form doing your stuff, and go blur straight away when the one is standing in front of you.
Why can't we just tell what we feel or want to let him/her know to the one? It is just words, and this is more than words, words with feelings , with hope, with tears, with love.
As I said in my older post, lots of time we need to think by using our heart instead of our brain. Don't care what will happen, just tell. Let the one know what you are think, what is your feeling to him/her.
There is no need for guys to act cool, just say it. Affraid of losing a friend after tell her your true feeling? Forget it. Girls are not that simple. You will only lose a friend because the thing or Emoness you put on yourself after telling, sorry guys i have to say, its lame, girls think that way.
People like to know things, same goes to what other are thinking of them, they wanted to know so much. That why, tell them. I bet we are the same.
" Why did you tell me you like me in the first place? "
" Cause now you had a boyfriend, that why i choose not to tell.."
" AND HOW THE HELL I SURPOSE TO KNOW?" see...?
Telling is not stupid nor brave, it is the first and last thing we do, and believe me, you will have a good night sleep tonight.
" Bu-shit. There is no use even I tell her. "
" There will no be a good ending, forget it , i Don't wanna tell him. "
" I love her, but she already have a boyfriend, so i guess i just wait..."
" There is no need for me to tell, i will just follow the flow.."
People will come out with funny thinking.
Or some of them , wish to let him/her to know , wish to tell but dare not, korean drama style, and still wrote things indirectly on blog wish that him/her will accidently find out?
oh dear god~
Why can we just, okay , i will suggest to the one who really are the type of people that i wrote about above, to go to the cinema, watch the movie call " The Ugly Truth".
swt...
Right , Serious. Same goes to guys and girls, what is the worst thing in life? It is nothing more than having something in your heart which you wanted to tell someone but you don't or dare not and hurt you badly.. or madly maybe. You can't even do anything else more, you can't concentrate, you are no on form doing your stuff, and go blur straight away when the one is standing in front of you.
Why can't we just tell what we feel or want to let him/her know to the one? It is just words, and this is more than words, words with feelings , with hope, with tears, with love.
As I said in my older post, lots of time we need to think by using our heart instead of our brain. Don't care what will happen, just tell. Let the one know what you are think, what is your feeling to him/her.
There is no need for guys to act cool, just say it. Affraid of losing a friend after tell her your true feeling? Forget it. Girls are not that simple. You will only lose a friend because the thing or Emoness you put on yourself after telling, sorry guys i have to say, its lame, girls think that way.
People like to know things, same goes to what other are thinking of them, they wanted to know so much. That why, tell them. I bet we are the same.
" Why did you tell me you like me in the first place? "
" Cause now you had a boyfriend, that why i choose not to tell.."
" AND HOW THE HELL I SURPOSE TO KNOW?" see...?
Telling is not stupid nor brave, it is the first and last thing we do, and believe me, you will have a good night sleep tonight.
2009年9月21日星期一
To the Nameless One..
Hi my friend. Why do you apologize? Did i wrote or said anythings wrong?
I am sorry if i really do.. Or i got the wrong message?
I am sorry if i really do.. Or i got the wrong message?
2009年9月13日星期日
Blood on Our OwN
As we live on , we meet friends, and some of them may be understandable, nice, charming, caring, smart, honest, selfish, ugly, whatever. Different people have different action , personality and thinking.
When we first meet with whoever, we may "target locked" as the first time we knew them.
" He is this kinda person "
It is what we usually say.
People are connected the same way, knowing, but the result is different. Even there is nothing more than friendship, even its normal, how 1 people tread his or her friend is totally different.
It is normal.
But for some of them may think that why is my friend act so cool to me yet for me he/she is the one I though we should be good friends, or we should be close.
Why my friend never cares about what happen to me, why the things I though it mean something but mean nothing to my friend, and will disappointed to say that he/she doesn't care.
Think too much.
If anyone agree or in the same situation, I guess i have to say, we are thinking too much.
Each of us in one earth, having own life, having the one we actually love , care , hate , etc.
Sometimes, as someone said to me, it may be the matter of time. Our friend or the one we care the most, they may care of us too, but in a different way, may not spoken out , but they do care.
And even we should think about, they may want to say something, something that show lots and lots of care to us, but sorry to say , we never gave them any chances. And it may not be the right time they think they should say it.
Whoever person in this world I guess, they have a heart , just like what we think we have. Our friends , the one we love , the one around us, they do Care.
But please don't judge them before they even have a chances to, for the one who we think is that important to us, it is not fair.
When we first meet with whoever, we may "target locked" as the first time we knew them.
" He is this kinda person "
It is what we usually say.
People are connected the same way, knowing, but the result is different. Even there is nothing more than friendship, even its normal, how 1 people tread his or her friend is totally different.
It is normal.
But for some of them may think that why is my friend act so cool to me yet for me he/she is the one I though we should be good friends, or we should be close.
Why my friend never cares about what happen to me, why the things I though it mean something but mean nothing to my friend, and will disappointed to say that he/she doesn't care.
Think too much.
If anyone agree or in the same situation, I guess i have to say, we are thinking too much.
Each of us in one earth, having own life, having the one we actually love , care , hate , etc.
Sometimes, as someone said to me, it may be the matter of time. Our friend or the one we care the most, they may care of us too, but in a different way, may not spoken out , but they do care.
And even we should think about, they may want to say something, something that show lots and lots of care to us, but sorry to say , we never gave them any chances. And it may not be the right time they think they should say it.
Whoever person in this world I guess, they have a heart , just like what we think we have. Our friends , the one we love , the one around us, they do Care.
But please don't judge them before they even have a chances to, for the one who we think is that important to us, it is not fair.
To the Nameless One
Hey. Thanks for all the comment and i have to say everything you said were correct. You were right about me. And if you say that i may know who are you... Well, i don't. It may be , It may be not. Maybe you are close to me , maybe you are far from. You know me.
But still, knowing who you are actually or not is no big deal. This is our way right? ^^
I may know who are you one day, or , I will keep you here , as one person who understand me, here. And no matter if i know who are you some other day , you can be you, and leave "the one here" remain to the nameless.
You were right, i do need to tkae things easily. And thats the way , the right way to do things the right way, the power to hold things on nicely.
I do wish our connection here never ends. I do need people to give me comment, at least someone who understand me, like you , your comment.
Thankyou very much, my friend. I thankyou. ^^
But still, knowing who you are actually or not is no big deal. This is our way right? ^^
I may know who are you one day, or , I will keep you here , as one person who understand me, here. And no matter if i know who are you some other day , you can be you, and leave "the one here" remain to the nameless.
You were right, i do need to tkae things easily. And thats the way , the right way to do things the right way, the power to hold things on nicely.
I do wish our connection here never ends. I do need people to give me comment, at least someone who understand me, like you , your comment.
Thankyou very much, my friend. I thankyou. ^^
2009年9月7日星期一
Walking along.
Days passed. I start to settle a lot of things which are unsettle. Friends , family, brothers, me myself. Knowing of so many things which I never realize all these while. Got a kind of release after every thing I did.
We do pay a lot in our life to learn; and to move on. But , I am still who I am, no doult. I do remember every single thing I said and keeping every little promise. I do.
Week passed, I rarely have enough sleep. I miss those who are important to me yet I still stop contacting them currently. I may need more time, as I always say. But I do miss you all. I do miss you.
Seeing things at different point of view isn't that bad; at least I do feel better, in a way.
Things happened around me, everyday. They all went into my brain and I do remember every second of it and I don't know why. Waiting for the time which I am able to walk back to my normal way of life.
And things happen to me make me realized all the negative side of myself. And because of this, I try to go around places, look for people which I have things to settle with them, and settle it. And I do feel great that luck is on my side; I get to meet those people somehow.
And it let me know that who actually care, who actually able to care , and those who wish to care but I never give them a chances to. Without those voices I do feel lonely as ever. I miss them.
Time has allow me to move on soon, or maybe I am moving. I really do not wish to lost any friendship anymore. I don't want to lost anyone anymore. I wish the one I do love and care are able to walk along with me through my living days, at least in my heart.
Until the day I am really back..
I miss You. I really miss you.
We do pay a lot in our life to learn; and to move on. But , I am still who I am, no doult. I do remember every single thing I said and keeping every little promise. I do.
Week passed, I rarely have enough sleep. I miss those who are important to me yet I still stop contacting them currently. I may need more time, as I always say. But I do miss you all. I do miss you.
Seeing things at different point of view isn't that bad; at least I do feel better, in a way.
Things happened around me, everyday. They all went into my brain and I do remember every second of it and I don't know why. Waiting for the time which I am able to walk back to my normal way of life.
And things happen to me make me realized all the negative side of myself. And because of this, I try to go around places, look for people which I have things to settle with them, and settle it. And I do feel great that luck is on my side; I get to meet those people somehow.
And it let me know that who actually care, who actually able to care , and those who wish to care but I never give them a chances to. Without those voices I do feel lonely as ever. I miss them.
Time has allow me to move on soon, or maybe I am moving. I really do not wish to lost any friendship anymore. I don't want to lost anyone anymore. I wish the one I do love and care are able to walk along with me through my living days, at least in my heart.
Until the day I am really back..
I miss You. I really miss you.
2009年9月5日星期六
To the Nameless one
I leave the reply under each time of your comment. Well. Wish you can check it everytime you read. Thank you. Really thank you.
2009年8月31日星期一
The Day when you left. To my God Father... R.I.P
I cant write anything here. Words can't represent my feelings.
Sorry god father... I don't get to see you before you leave... I am sorry.
I start to realize what kind of person I am.. I will reconsider myself.. Or I can't face any of them who really care for me..
I stop crying, seriously... I guess you won't want me to...
As I said growing and leaning in life need a price, but the price this time.. is really too large..
I need sometime, maybe a lot of time, also wanted to say sorry to all of my best friends and Bros... I really need sometime to reconsider myself..
Until the day... I am sorry.
R.I.P to my god father.
Sorry god father... I don't get to see you before you leave... I am sorry.
I start to realize what kind of person I am.. I will reconsider myself.. Or I can't face any of them who really care for me..
I stop crying, seriously... I guess you won't want me to...
As I said growing and leaning in life need a price, but the price this time.. is really too large..
I need sometime, maybe a lot of time, also wanted to say sorry to all of my best friends and Bros... I really need sometime to reconsider myself..
Until the day... I am sorry.
R.I.P to my god father.
2009年8月30日星期日
The Unsolve.
Some people have a special ability,we call it Insight. Which means they are able to know what are others thinking, emotion, action, practice, personality and style. It sounds cool. I know many of you have that ability, or maybe a little bit of it.
There was once Einstein said that humans are not even using more than 12% of their own brain, well , maybe he used more. And Marie Curie said :" If someone is able to know what others thinking, he or she maybe god, and this is the ability god is having."
So now, I said many of you having that ability , am I wrong?
Well, guess not, things change, and they made the statement 150 years plus ago.
Many of you do have that ability , me too, a little bit of it.
It is kind of a powerful thing to get someone to know another one and maybe impress by knowing what they want, what they like without telling. Sounds nice, it may help you to make up with guys or girls. With Insight, you can even get to know what is going to happen or what will he or she do in the next moment.
I got this ability after lots and lots of things happen to me. Other word my brain learn this ability itself. For me , I feel like kind of fun and happy while starting, knowing things I wish to know from some people, like personality. lolx.
So, getting to know someone personality letting us to decide wheather that person is good or suitable to mix with. And, things happen to be good, friend, bro/sis, very close with each other, couple or whatever.
But when the time comes, some of you might be the same, start to be afraid, fear about the ability of Insight. Knowing the personality of the one you know well changed. Changes of being not suiting to your personality. Start doing things which cause you to feel bad. Start to make up question like " why will he become like this " , " Is this the one i knew last time", " She is just this kind of person??" , bla bla bla...
" Things change and you cant expect all people remain the same over time " will be the most common answer we will get.
And the more you look into and getting know about what that person think or act , hope for getting some answers, yet the only thing you will get is more and more unsolve question and disappointment.
End of the day which I feel like knowing the thinking of someone isn't helping at all. Yet make me feel pressure and tension. Fear to lost a friend , or someone which you want to be with but you can't. It may be the ability of Insight fail me, or would be too high of expectation for someone fail the ability of Insight. It is no good.
These happen to make someone lost of direction. Asking what should be done.
Or maybe the ability is not complete or perfect, by looking in someone will not be the trueself of that person if he is pretending. And worst thing happened when he go back to his real " him".
Maybe it is not a right way, and somehow I stop to use the ability of Insight. Gaining nothing.
And maybe we are human , just because we are human, there is no need to use such ability. Who knows if 12% uses of the human brain is more than enough. Imagine if someone used up to more than 12%, what will be the counter react, facing question without any answer.
There was once Einstein said that humans are not even using more than 12% of their own brain, well , maybe he used more. And Marie Curie said :" If someone is able to know what others thinking, he or she maybe god, and this is the ability god is having."
So now, I said many of you having that ability , am I wrong?
Well, guess not, things change, and they made the statement 150 years plus ago.
Many of you do have that ability , me too, a little bit of it.
It is kind of a powerful thing to get someone to know another one and maybe impress by knowing what they want, what they like without telling. Sounds nice, it may help you to make up with guys or girls. With Insight, you can even get to know what is going to happen or what will he or she do in the next moment.
I got this ability after lots and lots of things happen to me. Other word my brain learn this ability itself. For me , I feel like kind of fun and happy while starting, knowing things I wish to know from some people, like personality. lolx.
So, getting to know someone personality letting us to decide wheather that person is good or suitable to mix with. And, things happen to be good, friend, bro/sis, very close with each other, couple or whatever.
But when the time comes, some of you might be the same, start to be afraid, fear about the ability of Insight. Knowing the personality of the one you know well changed. Changes of being not suiting to your personality. Start doing things which cause you to feel bad. Start to make up question like " why will he become like this " , " Is this the one i knew last time", " She is just this kind of person??" , bla bla bla...
" Things change and you cant expect all people remain the same over time " will be the most common answer we will get.
And the more you look into and getting know about what that person think or act , hope for getting some answers, yet the only thing you will get is more and more unsolve question and disappointment.
End of the day which I feel like knowing the thinking of someone isn't helping at all. Yet make me feel pressure and tension. Fear to lost a friend , or someone which you want to be with but you can't. It may be the ability of Insight fail me, or would be too high of expectation for someone fail the ability of Insight. It is no good.
These happen to make someone lost of direction. Asking what should be done.
Or maybe the ability is not complete or perfect, by looking in someone will not be the trueself of that person if he is pretending. And worst thing happened when he go back to his real " him".
Maybe it is not a right way, and somehow I stop to use the ability of Insight. Gaining nothing.
And maybe we are human , just because we are human, there is no need to use such ability. Who knows if 12% uses of the human brain is more than enough. Imagine if someone used up to more than 12%, what will be the counter react, facing question without any answer.
To the Nameless One.
Hi. From now I think we contact though comments ba, I will write my message at the comment to you under my blog post. Thanks for the comment. Others stuff I wrote under comment. Please to read. ^^
2009年8月25日星期二
The Heart
Heart is one the the important organ in our body; heart attack can't be cure, a doctor said.
Heart is use to listen to those things more than just using our hears, a musician said.
Heart is energy that beats every second along the journey, a runner said.
Different individual might say a different concept.
There is one day went to a fruit stall which i didn't realize it is been there for 4 years in my own living area. I brought some oranges. The first time i meet with the boss.
" Finally you came by to buy some fruit, young man."
" Do we know each other already? I though I am the first time here."
" Haha. I watch everyone passing by the street for the last 4 years plus. You live at the house up there, my daughter use to tell me everytime she saw you passed by. A weird kid walking alone without putting any emotion to his face."
" And your daughter?"
" She went study in Japan, don't think she is coming back."
" Haha, interesting, and why do you feel kinda happy when i am here buying fruit from you? It should be normal to you for anyone coming to your stall."
" I don't plan to run this business longer, since there is only me and my wife here. But still I feel kinda happy, to see you walking here smiling at last."
The moment he answer my question, I feel kind of shock. It is like there is some one who put his concern on me, for the pasy 4 years? what the.....
The time i even though that, he is there because of me, waiting for me to give him the ending.
I do realize, how many people, human think with their heart , but not their brain. Have you ever feel the real pain in heart? Why not your head? There is only heart attack. Why not brain attack?
In my life , ever the day I start to know what is emotion, whole of my life, it is like things happen in life running through the flow of my heart with others. Doing what I feel like doing. For every single thing happen , wheather it is good or bad, sad or happiness, they are going in my heart to keep me going to tomorrow.
Holding up all the memories and promises. Keeping in all the lesson and hard times. Gaining the things which i feel it is really valueble in my life, lke the old man at the fruit stall. All in or by my heart.
Thats the reason why I am emotional. And it is also why I learned and move on. It is why i can make promises when everyone feel like it is imposible for a human to hold on to. And it is who I am after all. There was a time when I am doubt that wheather it is no good to put too much emotion for what had happened. Yes it is no good. But not to everything. There are something still, you can't get to know, learn or feel without strong emotion, from heart.
By doing that, I put my soul on six of them, who actually able to indirectly affect my emotion, in other word, to control the feeling of my heart; the truth, I am the one think by using both my heart and brain.
And now , they had become the motion or strenght to every single thing I do to improve.
Yet , I do not lost myself. To be clear, putting the soul of my heart on the six of them is nothing to do for being myself.
And the reason I am doing it, maybe you are doing the same without notice yourself, simple, just because I feel free , happy , relax and able to express my emotion the time I am with them. And the real point i get to be myself when I am with them.
Human live in the time when we breath. How long more you should hide your emotion. Like me, there maybe someone who actually watching you longer or more than you even realize. Sorry for the one who can't get what I am trying to tell in this blog, try to think with your heart, not your head. haha....
*****
Use your head to find the answer when you are getting the work done.
Use your heart to find the answer when you are getting yourself done.
Heart is use to listen to those things more than just using our hears, a musician said.
Heart is energy that beats every second along the journey, a runner said.
Different individual might say a different concept.
There is one day went to a fruit stall which i didn't realize it is been there for 4 years in my own living area. I brought some oranges. The first time i meet with the boss.
" Finally you came by to buy some fruit, young man."
" Do we know each other already? I though I am the first time here."
" Haha. I watch everyone passing by the street for the last 4 years plus. You live at the house up there, my daughter use to tell me everytime she saw you passed by. A weird kid walking alone without putting any emotion to his face."
" And your daughter?"
" She went study in Japan, don't think she is coming back."
" Haha, interesting, and why do you feel kinda happy when i am here buying fruit from you? It should be normal to you for anyone coming to your stall."
" I don't plan to run this business longer, since there is only me and my wife here. But still I feel kinda happy, to see you walking here smiling at last."
The moment he answer my question, I feel kind of shock. It is like there is some one who put his concern on me, for the pasy 4 years? what the.....
The time i even though that, he is there because of me, waiting for me to give him the ending.
I do realize, how many people, human think with their heart , but not their brain. Have you ever feel the real pain in heart? Why not your head? There is only heart attack. Why not brain attack?
In my life , ever the day I start to know what is emotion, whole of my life, it is like things happen in life running through the flow of my heart with others. Doing what I feel like doing. For every single thing happen , wheather it is good or bad, sad or happiness, they are going in my heart to keep me going to tomorrow.
Holding up all the memories and promises. Keeping in all the lesson and hard times. Gaining the things which i feel it is really valueble in my life, lke the old man at the fruit stall. All in or by my heart.
Thats the reason why I am emotional. And it is also why I learned and move on. It is why i can make promises when everyone feel like it is imposible for a human to hold on to. And it is who I am after all. There was a time when I am doubt that wheather it is no good to put too much emotion for what had happened. Yes it is no good. But not to everything. There are something still, you can't get to know, learn or feel without strong emotion, from heart.
By doing that, I put my soul on six of them, who actually able to indirectly affect my emotion, in other word, to control the feeling of my heart; the truth, I am the one think by using both my heart and brain.
And now , they had become the motion or strenght to every single thing I do to improve.
Yet , I do not lost myself. To be clear, putting the soul of my heart on the six of them is nothing to do for being myself.
And the reason I am doing it, maybe you are doing the same without notice yourself, simple, just because I feel free , happy , relax and able to express my emotion the time I am with them. And the real point i get to be myself when I am with them.
Human live in the time when we breath. How long more you should hide your emotion. Like me, there maybe someone who actually watching you longer or more than you even realize. Sorry for the one who can't get what I am trying to tell in this blog, try to think with your heart, not your head. haha....
*****
Use your head to find the answer when you are getting the work done.
Use your heart to find the answer when you are getting yourself done.
2009年8月23日星期日
The Buns...
BASE ON TRUE STORY OF MINE. lolx. start of with a less formal style. Okay. Its a sunny saturday,one of my friend suggest that we go for tea with our old school classmates. My friend drove my car and we started our journey, and i have to say except for my friend who was driving, no one knows where we were actually going.
Open the GPS. " waaaooo" , on the screen, 3 journeys.
1st journey : 25km++
2nd journey: 40km ++
3rd journey : 20km++
total of 85km++ What the.....
God. 2 hours drive for tea? I can't even believe it myself. lolx. The time we arrived, and my friend said :" Here is Tanjung Sepang, they sell the best bun in town. Lots of the celebrities were here just to test the buns. "
SWTness.. Anyway, i brought some for her ^^.
On that day. 6 of us, guess some of them were sleeping along the journey, some even complaining that it was crazy, just because of bun..
Well, honestly i feel it was kind of crazy too, too bad the last time I check, i build my life most on craziness.
The bun is nice.
Many people will think that something use to happen to be suck.. but different people think the other way.
Along the journey, I do enjoy side seeing, the forest neutral and the beautiful sea side. The old style kinda living area, old houses and shops. Feel like walking back to history, a time with no rushing for work, no tension for life, no depression over problems. There is one kind of undescridable feelings of relaxation and peaces.
I really can't write the feelings i had at that moment, it is magical, touching. Leave it for your own imagination. haha.
Went back on the evening. Sunset accompany us along the journey. Warm... ^^
There is no point of living life without taking a few chances, someone said that. And I guess thats who I am.
There are someone took airplane to Hong Kong for a DIM SAM breakfast and back to Malaysia in the evening, so what? lolx.
I love the buns. Still warm when i gave them to her ^^ hahaha.
Open the GPS. " waaaooo" , on the screen, 3 journeys.
1st journey : 25km++
2nd journey: 40km ++
3rd journey : 20km++
total of 85km++ What the.....
God. 2 hours drive for tea? I can't even believe it myself. lolx. The time we arrived, and my friend said :" Here is Tanjung Sepang, they sell the best bun in town. Lots of the celebrities were here just to test the buns. "
SWTness.. Anyway, i brought some for her ^^.
On that day. 6 of us, guess some of them were sleeping along the journey, some even complaining that it was crazy, just because of bun..
Well, honestly i feel it was kind of crazy too, too bad the last time I check, i build my life most on craziness.
The bun is nice.
Many people will think that something use to happen to be suck.. but different people think the other way.
Along the journey, I do enjoy side seeing, the forest neutral and the beautiful sea side. The old style kinda living area, old houses and shops. Feel like walking back to history, a time with no rushing for work, no tension for life, no depression over problems. There is one kind of undescridable feelings of relaxation and peaces.
I really can't write the feelings i had at that moment, it is magical, touching. Leave it for your own imagination. haha.
Went back on the evening. Sunset accompany us along the journey. Warm... ^^
There is no point of living life without taking a few chances, someone said that. And I guess thats who I am.
There are someone took airplane to Hong Kong for a DIM SAM breakfast and back to Malaysia in the evening, so what? lolx.
I love the buns. Still warm when i gave them to her ^^ hahaha.
2009年8月20日星期四
To the NamelesS
I like your style. It is okay, I would like to do it your way.
Well, all the time you are giving me good comment, I am thankyou.
^^ I will not ask anything bout you until you wanna tell me yourself.
But allow me to ask, if i wish to leave a message or wanted to talk about the comment, what should I do?.
Neways , Thank you and everyone who actually support my blog.
Wishing for more good post.
Well, all the time you are giving me good comment, I am thankyou.
^^ I will not ask anything bout you until you wanna tell me yourself.
But allow me to ask, if i wish to leave a message or wanted to talk about the comment, what should I do?.
Neways , Thank you and everyone who actually support my blog.
Wishing for more good post.
2009年8月15日星期六
Matches in the Dark. The 25 is coming, again.
Start off with a smile. Take a breath. ^^
This will be a Emo blog, or maybe it is not Emo at all. As i said tomorrow never comes late, time flies, it is going to be 25th , this month. It maybe the day that totally changed the way I live my life 5 years ago. The day she left me, her family, all of the friends, and her life...
May i describe more about her. Well, lets start from the face. Two bright eyes which can look deeply into someone. Holding a guitar or violin wherever she goes. Soft hands , little fingers, which can play anytime along with my piano. A very sweet voice that touch everyones heart. Huging that let me know that she is always be with me; with a bit of cigarette smell of Malborol.
After the day of 25th. There is nothing left for everyone who knows her. No more sitting at the corner she always been sitting in the studio. Losting everything i though i can hold up to. No more walking on the little street she walked every weekends to my house. Lots and lots sadness, Emo, Ego, madness, depression , tensions , hopeless....
That all histories. Tonight, I took out the only picture we have, the picture we took with our band. By looking the smile on all the faces in the picture, i can even feel the happiness right now.
Smile~
I feel like there is a kind of sweet feelings going into my heart. There is no more sadness or depression. I know, there is no point of living in the shadow.
Refresh about all the things happen between us. I remember the time i hate when you smoking inside of the studio. The time we complete the first song we composed. The time when we run away from work. The days we both stay back in the studio, sitting together, singing... The time when you lying on my showder over the night. And the matches we play with after we off all the light. The little touch of the flames taht keep both of us warm together.
Guess it will be a rainny day on the 25th. Who knows. I was smiling all the way when typing this blog. I really wanted to thanks her for giving me a really sweet memory in my life. Because there is no point being depressing over her leaving. I guess everyone who knew her would do the same.
Her leaving made me start smoking, but there is someone now who made me stopped, and teached me smile. haha. I guess i will stick to it, for my own health. lolx. I will miss you, we all will miss you, all the time in our heart. And I will also end off with a smile.
R.I.P my friends.
25th of Agust 2004.
This will be a Emo blog, or maybe it is not Emo at all. As i said tomorrow never comes late, time flies, it is going to be 25th , this month. It maybe the day that totally changed the way I live my life 5 years ago. The day she left me, her family, all of the friends, and her life...
May i describe more about her. Well, lets start from the face. Two bright eyes which can look deeply into someone. Holding a guitar or violin wherever she goes. Soft hands , little fingers, which can play anytime along with my piano. A very sweet voice that touch everyones heart. Huging that let me know that she is always be with me; with a bit of cigarette smell of Malborol.
After the day of 25th. There is nothing left for everyone who knows her. No more sitting at the corner she always been sitting in the studio. Losting everything i though i can hold up to. No more walking on the little street she walked every weekends to my house. Lots and lots sadness, Emo, Ego, madness, depression , tensions , hopeless....
That all histories. Tonight, I took out the only picture we have, the picture we took with our band. By looking the smile on all the faces in the picture, i can even feel the happiness right now.
Smile~
I feel like there is a kind of sweet feelings going into my heart. There is no more sadness or depression. I know, there is no point of living in the shadow.
Refresh about all the things happen between us. I remember the time i hate when you smoking inside of the studio. The time we complete the first song we composed. The time when we run away from work. The days we both stay back in the studio, sitting together, singing... The time when you lying on my showder over the night. And the matches we play with after we off all the light. The little touch of the flames taht keep both of us warm together.
Guess it will be a rainny day on the 25th. Who knows. I was smiling all the way when typing this blog. I really wanted to thanks her for giving me a really sweet memory in my life. Because there is no point being depressing over her leaving. I guess everyone who knew her would do the same.
Her leaving made me start smoking, but there is someone now who made me stopped, and teached me smile. haha. I guess i will stick to it, for my own health. lolx. I will miss you, we all will miss you, all the time in our heart. And I will also end off with a smile.
R.I.P my friends.
25th of Agust 2004.
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And again , hope all of you like my blogs and continue for supportting.
Look forward for more supporters and comments.
P.S : Hope whatever i wrote never offences anyone or anything.
2009年8月7日星期五
Promise....
When a guy use to like a girl or the other way round, usually one of the them with make up funny promise; like, I love you forever , there is nothing can replace you in my life , I will hold you until the end of the world. bla bla bla.
But how many of them can actually hold to what they promise, or how long they can keep what they said. How hard it is to hold them on. How terrible it is to hold it. Had people start to realize it? Just because of the promise said before...
What is the reason for them to keep to their promise? Because it is really true? How much of them? Because wanted to show others what you are? How real it is? Because you wish to tell the only one something but you can't.
There is too many of fake in this world wish make the real looks fake too...
It really takes a very strong will to hold it on. And the people who realize this are always have a big problem in life. Either they don't make any promises, or they take the whole life for it until the last day, and may get nothing at all.
The day I make a promise to myself, I knew I will waste my whole life for it. It is like dropping a coin into the deep sea, it is final, and there is no return. And again i will stuck myself back into terrible time... all the time...
The takes a great price to whoever wanted to do the same, have a true promise, a life time promise. And it take a great price too for the one who want to believe in it.
The worst thing is even if we take the whole life to hold the promise we made, the keep the words we say, hardly , madly, and yet the one he or she will believe, but they don't even take it seriously at all.
As I always say , and all of them who knew and doing the same thing as I did
I mean what i said, it is true and it will be. Whatever it takes, whatever happen.
As long as I am living , and even there is no one left on the last day of it,
And even you don't care at all,
I promise........
But how many of them can actually hold to what they promise, or how long they can keep what they said. How hard it is to hold them on. How terrible it is to hold it. Had people start to realize it? Just because of the promise said before...
What is the reason for them to keep to their promise? Because it is really true? How much of them? Because wanted to show others what you are? How real it is? Because you wish to tell the only one something but you can't.
There is too many of fake in this world wish make the real looks fake too...
It really takes a very strong will to hold it on. And the people who realize this are always have a big problem in life. Either they don't make any promises, or they take the whole life for it until the last day, and may get nothing at all.
The day I make a promise to myself, I knew I will waste my whole life for it. It is like dropping a coin into the deep sea, it is final, and there is no return. And again i will stuck myself back into terrible time... all the time...
The takes a great price to whoever wanted to do the same, have a true promise, a life time promise. And it take a great price too for the one who want to believe in it.
The worst thing is even if we take the whole life to hold the promise we made, the keep the words we say, hardly , madly, and yet the one he or she will believe, but they don't even take it seriously at all.
As I always say , and all of them who knew and doing the same thing as I did
I mean what i said, it is true and it will be. Whatever it takes, whatever happen.
As long as I am living , and even there is no one left on the last day of it,
And even you don't care at all,
I promise........
2009年8月2日星期日
Knowing_____________ Me
The morning i woke up to look myself in the mirror knowing that my body is still warm.
The breakfast i ate to realize the age of my mom knowing that time flys.
The car i washed to see it dust knowing how long things i stopped care of.
The bottles i cleaned at the bar to let them look shinny knowing the period of time i stopped drinking.
The lighter i kept in place after using knowing that i have stopped smoking.
The piano i played which it sound weird knowing when it is the last tuning.
The picture i looked which took during secondary knowing that i am moving on.
The song i heard that i love the most knowing the things which i hold on always.
The little dog that i love look at me in its eyes knowing how long it have been the last time i touched its head.
The cool wind i need to let me relax knowing how much depression i can stand and left.
The feeling i miss everytime i be with you knowing how sweet the memory is.
The smile i seen always which make me lose all my tension knowing when is the time i learn how to smile.
The phone i am using contain lots of credit knowing how long i nve call my friends.
The people i saw on the street walking with depression and sadness in the rain knowing life is unpredictable.
The guy i saw who always go the same psychologist knowing that human mind are not that easy to cure.
The last minutes packing i do to go back to my college knowing tomorrow never come late.
The breakfast i ate to realize the age of my mom knowing that time flys.
The car i washed to see it dust knowing how long things i stopped care of.
The bottles i cleaned at the bar to let them look shinny knowing the period of time i stopped drinking.
The lighter i kept in place after using knowing that i have stopped smoking.
The piano i played which it sound weird knowing when it is the last tuning.
The picture i looked which took during secondary knowing that i am moving on.
The song i heard that i love the most knowing the things which i hold on always.
The little dog that i love look at me in its eyes knowing how long it have been the last time i touched its head.
The cool wind i need to let me relax knowing how much depression i can stand and left.
The feeling i miss everytime i be with you knowing how sweet the memory is.
The smile i seen always which make me lose all my tension knowing when is the time i learn how to smile.
The phone i am using contain lots of credit knowing how long i nve call my friends.
The people i saw on the street walking with depression and sadness in the rain knowing life is unpredictable.
The guy i saw who always go the same psychologist knowing that human mind are not that easy to cure.
The last minutes packing i do to go back to my college knowing tomorrow never come late.
2009年7月31日星期五
Barrier
Things in this world go different everytime the human's thinking changed. Weird. Many of them try to figure out how will this happen, maybe there will not be any answer. And this happen when many of us start to realize ; when someone knew the truth or something they should have known, they will start to avoid, rather feeling kinda fear and hate. Same thing goes to people in schools, friends and everyone else.Whoever knew them before may think they are good to be with , with confidences. But end up, feeling kind of dissappointed for what had happened.The one we think is fine, may end up the same way.
Too little amount of people get to go beyond this kind of limitation; fear for themselves to get in to a very confuse rather hard kind of situation.
Many of you which I guess this topic is not even new, but what the point of people still never realize what they are doing brings others' despression. And sometimes, things may not be what you think it is.
Not until the day you understand, it may be too late. Even the day comes, hopefully everythings still have a chances to go back to normal. At least.
2009年7月26日星期日
The Untouchable.
It is a late night. After a late saturday dinner, i went home, looking for a cool drinks. I did really feel warm.. from the weather ? from my body? Or izit from my head, i can't tell. I really can't tell. At the moment i though it was the small bottle of bir i had during my dinner start to take its effect.
It take strenght for me to breath, feeling blur. Feeling tired but don't feel like sitting down. I took out my shirt, took a bath; but it doesn't help me to cool down. It seems like there are something, something that will make all the memory come back to me again. Start to think about stuff which happened , good and bad, terrible.
The pain of the memories are consuming my strenght, my heart start to feel hard again...
I tried my best to breath slowly, hold my hands together. In my mind, i was trying to stop thinking about anything, closing the door of the history of myself.
The make me feel better, since it was not a windy night, as everyone did , thinking or recall about all kinda happy and good memory i had. My friends, brothers , pet sis... all of them. Thinking about the one who teach me how to relax , how to play piano and the one who teach me how to smile. Took out my phone, look at all the pictures i took...
smile...
Start to realize that actually memory is the best and the most dangerous part of a person. It will be the best medic or the worst poision in our brain. There is no telling or we can't select what will become our memory or delete it away once it is there. All we can do is choose not to touch it anymore, to seal it up.
A strong memory guy may be the most depress guy ever. Guess it is the time people need to stop touch with all their old and rather sad memories. We want to be better; i promise to myself to be better and i will be better. Until the day the untouchable leave this world with my soul.
It take strenght for me to breath, feeling blur. Feeling tired but don't feel like sitting down. I took out my shirt, took a bath; but it doesn't help me to cool down. It seems like there are something, something that will make all the memory come back to me again. Start to think about stuff which happened , good and bad, terrible.
The pain of the memories are consuming my strenght, my heart start to feel hard again...
I tried my best to breath slowly, hold my hands together. In my mind, i was trying to stop thinking about anything, closing the door of the history of myself.
The make me feel better, since it was not a windy night, as everyone did , thinking or recall about all kinda happy and good memory i had. My friends, brothers , pet sis... all of them. Thinking about the one who teach me how to relax , how to play piano and the one who teach me how to smile. Took out my phone, look at all the pictures i took...
smile...
Start to realize that actually memory is the best and the most dangerous part of a person. It will be the best medic or the worst poision in our brain. There is no telling or we can't select what will become our memory or delete it away once it is there. All we can do is choose not to touch it anymore, to seal it up.
A strong memory guy may be the most depress guy ever. Guess it is the time people need to stop touch with all their old and rather sad memories. We want to be better; i promise to myself to be better and i will be better. Until the day the untouchable leave this world with my soul.
2009年7月25日星期六
Outings 25/7/09
STILLLL , the same.
1. Sushi King.. ( not that much of tea this time)
2. Snooker center. ( Lol, 5-0, win win. Extra thing. The position of the view is really troublesome.
3. Cheese Cake~~
4. Red box~~~ ( good , sing until both also no voice..)
fren :" Hey , there will be a big misunderstanding if this picture is posted online... Send to me^^"
me :" Swt "
fren :" If i post it online, i will list there , me and my sis! "
me :" Why must you make fun of me?"
fren :" Okay ba, i put there me and my Bro"
me :" That sounds better.."
fren :" Okay , done! "
me :" There will be a big misunderstanding if this picture is posted online.."
Hahahahahahaha..........
5. Send her to KTM...
1. Sushi King.. ( not that much of tea this time)
2. Snooker center. ( Lol, 5-0, win win. Extra thing. The position of the view is really troublesome.
3. Cheese Cake~~
4. Red box~~~ ( good , sing until both also no voice..)
fren :" Hey , there will be a big misunderstanding if this picture is posted online... Send to me^^"
me :" Swt "
fren :" If i post it online, i will list there , me and my sis! "
me :" Why must you make fun of me?"
fren :" Okay ba, i put there me and my Bro"
me :" That sounds better.."
fren :" Okay , done! "
me :" There will be a big misunderstanding if this picture is posted online.."
Hahahahahahaha..........
5. Send her to KTM...
--END--
P.S : Can't post the picture yet, next week maybe ^^
2009年7月17日星期五
Green, Grass of Home~
Wthell... lolx. It is thursday. Again , water shortage at our hostel...... SWT.
Looking for water , walked around the whole college area. We found it. Our BOSS' room, Mr David. Great. 5 of us, rushing upstair and went into his room like little kids once he opened the door.
Chat with him, all kinda stuff. Forgetting about taking a bath ( cause he have a big water tank in his block )..
I went into the room and realize there is a nice shining guitar placed beside his bed.
" David, you play guitar? "
" Yes, I can "
" Can you play now? Show off a bit. We wanna see you play."
"Alrite, come , lets go into the room."
David said his was getting old, and can't really remember all the notes and lyrics of the song. So he has to look at the music book while playing.
From the music he played.... the voice he sang... It shows to us all the age and years that passing by him. Time never stop.....
But still , without looking back, all of us.. singing along, happily, feeling there is nothing much to care at that moment, hoping tomorrow will be better.
The thinny voice of ours...
From David's room...
A soft famost old song...
A gang of 20+ plus kids and a 40+ man...
Haha... the "Dry" night is something different..
The old home town looks the same~
As I step down from the train~
And there to meet me is my mamma and my poppa~
Down the road I look, and there runs Mary~
Hair of gold and lips like cherries~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~
Yes, they'll all come to meet me, Arms areaching, smiling sweetly~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~
The old house is still standing,Though the paint is cracked and dry~
And there's that old oak tree, That I used to play on~
Down the lane I'll walk with my sweet Mary~
Hair of gold and lips like cherries~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~
Then I awake and look around me~
At the four gray walls that surround me~
And I realize .Yes I was only dreaming~
For there's a guard and a sad old padre~
Arm in arm we'll walk at daybreak~
Again I'll touch the green green grass of home~
Yes they'll all come to see me in the shade of that old oak tree~
As they lay me neath the green green grass of home~
Green, Green Grass of Home Tom Jones
Looking for water , walked around the whole college area. We found it. Our BOSS' room, Mr David. Great. 5 of us, rushing upstair and went into his room like little kids once he opened the door.
Chat with him, all kinda stuff. Forgetting about taking a bath ( cause he have a big water tank in his block )..
I went into the room and realize there is a nice shining guitar placed beside his bed.
" David, you play guitar? "
" Yes, I can "
" Can you play now? Show off a bit. We wanna see you play."
"Alrite, come , lets go into the room."
David said his was getting old, and can't really remember all the notes and lyrics of the song. So he has to look at the music book while playing.
From the music he played.... the voice he sang... It shows to us all the age and years that passing by him. Time never stop.....
But still , without looking back, all of us.. singing along, happily, feeling there is nothing much to care at that moment, hoping tomorrow will be better.
The thinny voice of ours...
From David's room...
A soft famost old song...
A gang of 20+ plus kids and a 40+ man...
Haha... the "Dry" night is something different..
The old home town looks the same~
As I step down from the train~
And there to meet me is my mamma and my poppa~
Down the road I look, and there runs Mary~
Hair of gold and lips like cherries~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~
Yes, they'll all come to meet me, Arms areaching, smiling sweetly~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~
The old house is still standing,Though the paint is cracked and dry~
And there's that old oak tree, That I used to play on~
Down the lane I'll walk with my sweet Mary~
Hair of gold and lips like cherries~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~
Then I awake and look around me~
At the four gray walls that surround me~
And I realize .Yes I was only dreaming~
For there's a guard and a sad old padre~
Arm in arm we'll walk at daybreak~
Again I'll touch the green green grass of home~
Yes they'll all come to see me in the shade of that old oak tree~
As they lay me neath the green green grass of home~
Green, Green Grass of Home Tom Jones
2009年7月10日星期五
The Starring Night~
Just like every weekdays. Me and my friend, Ah Lee were walking for dinner at mamak. There was less vehicle on the road , which make the whole street and area looks quite. It was kinda windy... cool. I was thinking it might be a very good evening which i may have a wonderful mood for dinner.
After both of us had our dinner , chatting , we realize that there are so many star in the sky, totally clear and bright. I see the SCORPIO, shining bright top on the sky. I feel excited...
Blood boiling flowing within me.
It is like the SCORPIO sign giving me strength..
Seriously i get lucky that night. My eyes turned sharp... And there are a evil smile on my face.
After both of us had our dinner , chatting , we realize that there are so many star in the sky, totally clear and bright. I see the SCORPIO, shining bright top on the sky. I feel excited...
Blood boiling flowing within me.
It is like the SCORPIO sign giving me strength..
Seriously i get lucky that night. My eyes turned sharp... And there are a evil smile on my face.
I ran out again at 3.30 midnight to the little hill behind my college, loooking up to the sky, facing the SCORPIO sign..
Standing on the top of the hill with a cross post, closing my eyes.. Listen to the cool wind ; it seems like i can hear the voice of people singing , and the music of the opera~
Screaming out loud in my heart... Madness.
My soul was away for moment before i come back to my senses.
Water dropping down... Raining.. is all dark in the wood, i can even feel my own breath. It is cold... very cold...
The ultimate release, and now i was all in fear, walking slowly down the hill. I can't believe I am actually kinda enjoying the rain, at the same time hoping I never see anything unnecessary..
Alright, can't get to see anything in the sky anymore, went back to my hostel , everyone else slept , took my bath , took a 4 hours rest...
And from what crazy things i did, it is out of expectation , lose of my senses...
But sometime people should take a chances to do what they really wanted or feel like doing.
Without any second of delay , without any moment of considering , doing things which they don't even know what will it gonna be...
There is no point living life without taking few chances. Who knows life , may just more than being in life.
I love the night.
2009年7月4日星期六
COMPLETE DOR!
Finally complete!! haha. 3 little thingy , finally finished. Now just about the packing. ^^
Lolx, long time never do such things , hurt my own hand during the process.
Very happy , Very happy!!!!
Hope my friend will like it ^^
Lolx, long time never do such things , hurt my own hand during the process.
Very happy , Very happy!!!!
Hope my friend will like it ^^
Against
You know some people in the world is really weird. My best friend told me its normal. That many of them have many faces, and some of them don't even realize their own.
Lucky i were "trained" to be relax.. forget bout it... just be myself .... do my own stuff... lolx
It is really hard stuff, to hold and getting though it, even it looks easy when i put my smile on my face most the time.
Be cool. I done my part , they failed to do theirs'. All i would do is to see what will happen as time comes. ^^
Be strong.. No matter what is the challege, Before my life is Over, i will face it , i will take it up.
And finally realize , this is me , the true "me" .
Say :" cheese!! ^^
Lucky i were "trained" to be relax.. forget bout it... just be myself .... do my own stuff... lolx
It is really hard stuff, to hold and getting though it, even it looks easy when i put my smile on my face most the time.
Be cool. I done my part , they failed to do theirs'. All i would do is to see what will happen as time comes. ^^
Be strong.. No matter what is the challege, Before my life is Over, i will face it , i will take it up.
And finally realize , this is me , the true "me" .
Say :" cheese!! ^^
2009年6月27日星期六
The Sorrow 25 june 2009....
The day of the world is in sadness... for the lost of a man.. The KING of POP..
It was raining outside.. As a music composer, a crazy big fan, and a dancer.. Me and few of my friends; they are dancers too, look out to the rain fall.. silents..
Michael left us....
How can words describe the pain in our heart? How can words descride the terrible sadness of all human in the world had..
How can words descride a world top pop singer? How can words decride the KING...
How can he go....
Even if anyone say : " He will always be in our heart ."
But who really want him to be only in our heart?....
One of my friend cried......
We cried.......
Our idol.... The light that almost blind us when he is on stage... The rush and the fever he put on us... The LEGENG that no one else in the world can beat...
is gone.....
The world most GREAT concert... believe that everyone else was sitting in front of TV.... i was 8 years old..
The only dance which can counter gravity force. The Legendary Moon Walk.
The KING
A man that no human know not....The Legend hold for 40 years....
R.I.P
Our KING....
Michael Jackson
1958-2009
2009年6月20日星期六
The Little "Drain""
A lovely evening. As usual i was walking to the lake to look for sunset. TJ was jogging towards while me and Hao were collecting some small pieces of stones to throw at the lake.. ^^ just like kids....
Tj called both of us from far ... in a hurry. Me and Hao ran towards he as he was looking down to a drain... it was a little dog... black in colour, with a little green paint on one side of the eye, looks hungry.
Lucky Hao brought along some bread, feeding it. It was cute and playful , jumping around once we save it up from the water drain. We name it "Longkang"(drain) ... mean one.. Tj playing with it all the time, running up and down the hills... haha.
The sunset is here, and the cool wind blows... 3 of us , nope, i means 4 of us , included Longkang of course were looking at the sun.. relax... enjoying the best time in a day. Tasting the warm and harmony view. It sit nicely on the grass, looked like it understand and share how we feel. It is a male by the way.
Maybe it is thinking too.. something it wish to know or find out but it cant... something that it need to do to continue survive.. maybe it have to think what will happen the next minutes when we need to leave it.
Well, we love it, but the worst thing is we cant bring it back, cause we are living in hostel. As what we do, we bring it over to the small Indian village and leave it there , wish that if anyone one can take care of it. To get to the village, we need to go throught a wood bridge ; cause there was a Big drain serrounding the whole area.
Once we put it down , we start to walk.. run actually away from it. Guess it was a nitemare for it, it ran after us.. Without looking, it fell again into the big drain .. Wthell... it was drowning.. Without any delays i jump down to the drain, tried to reach it and throw it up to the ground. Tj and Hao try their best to pull me up, thats how big the drain is.
Fine..... i was all wet. Without any choices, 3 of us brought it all around the village to ask if anyone can take care of it.. Finally there is one, an old woman. She wanted Longkang.
3 of us walk back to our hostel as the sun is going down at the back of us. Feeling great. I dont even know why i jumped down to the river as me myself dont even know how to swim. But i guess everyone would have did the same thing.
Hao : " Wthell man, safe it up from small drain to big drain. hahaha , damn. "
Me : " Well , is alright. My arm still hurts."
Tj : " We were right, ia memang Longkang."
Hahahaha....
2009年6月13日星期六
Outtings.
Still the same.
1. Sushi King, warm tea, warm tea , still warm tea.
2. Going up , 8 ball pool. 3 : 1 . Never expect you will win. Since when i can play like that??? XD
3. Cheese cake! classic and berry + sparking juice. Share share lah.
4. Went Red-box. Sesak........ Yingness......... 2 ppl go redbox sing for 3hour plus, voice? pain....
5. Times up!
-End-
1. Sushi King, warm tea, warm tea , still warm tea.
2. Going up , 8 ball pool. 3 : 1 . Never expect you will win. Since when i can play like that??? XD
3. Cheese cake! classic and berry + sparking juice. Share share lah.
4. Went Red-box. Sesak........ Yingness......... 2 ppl go redbox sing for 3hour plus, voice? pain....
5. Times up!
" Wanna go dinner together? "
" Nope thanks, find something to eat at home. "
" Fine then , accompany you for a while."
" I though you park your car at the floor as same as sushi king?"
" Ya, why? "
" Sushi king is at upstair..... sesak."
"@#$%%^%$&@#!"
" Nope thanks, find something to eat at home. "
" Fine then , accompany you for a while."
" I though you park your car at the floor as same as sushi king?"
" Ya, why? "
" Sushi king is at upstair..... sesak."
"@#$%%^%$&@#!"
-End-
The Spirit Lake.
There is a lake near my college area at nilai, Pajam, they named it ( in chinese ) the spirit lake. The lake is beautiful , neutral, pure; with little insect and water livings. Me and few of my friends always go for a walk and take long rest at the lake after class hours. Collecting stones on the way to the lake, acting like children, throwing stones to express all emo. smile
The special thing about it , it have many stories, many history ( the villages told us ) , and a beautiful sunset. The sunset will be right at the middle of the lake (direction of view ); which means the lake is facing west. 
Well, this is my college. From my college to the lake... about.. 20 minit, took sweet time walking~
The sunset will be around 6.45 pm to 7. So if you are too early, go up to the little hill, relax and enjoy the windy evening. It is so NICE~~
Me and my friends enjoy the peaceful environment, chatting about all kinda stuff which we wished for advise or share.
Guys are Emo.. rite.
I am on the right. He is my friend T.J . A friendly malay guy in our class. Ah Hao, the cameraman behind us. lolx. Well , we are not the only group here, there are familys, brothers, friends, villages ; enjoying the peaceful lifestyle.
And finally , here comes the sunset. Beautiful... it seems like every unhappyiness, Emo, sadness has come to an end. Looking at it, feeling that tomorrow will be much better, much hopeful.
The lake is great. Guess it will become the resting point for us as long as we are at hostel. Cant wait for the next sunset. ^^
2009年6月6日星期六
Baby dream..
Anyone of you had crazy dreams? I had a lot XD Crazy~ totally .. But it happen so real , it is long , it seems like i have been inside it for days. I had it last night. Funny , i became a father. Have no idea who my wife is. dAMNN.. lolx
Once i get back to my house , lots of my friends were there , congrats me that i had became a dad. wth.... T.T do i seems that old. the best part is my parent called me to take good care of the baby. Well i guess is a "he" , he is cute. ^^
As i can recall , i brought him to the mall to have a walk , buy him food, brought him to the park , had a side seeing. I actually asked " who is you mum " ; the only thing he do is " Ba Ba."
@.@ """ swt..
The second day (in the dream) , i brought him together with my brothers for breakfast. They kept saying that my baby is cute , funny , fat , white. lolx. But at that time, i was affraid to ask my bro who actually is my wife. XD
Baby also got already , dont know who is the mother? god -___-""
Alright , i woke up finally , miss the baby , he is really cute, at least he never pee on my clothers. XD
So blur ... dunno what had happen. The moment i woke up , i dont even know wheater i am still inside the dream , or it was really a dream. ^^ Hope the baby i have in the future looks like him, kinda look like me XDD , Wish for that.
Feel kinda happy and excited when all my friends congrat me for becoming a dad~~
Once i get back to my house , lots of my friends were there , congrats me that i had became a dad. wth.... T.T do i seems that old. the best part is my parent called me to take good care of the baby. Well i guess is a "he" , he is cute. ^^
As i can recall , i brought him to the mall to have a walk , buy him food, brought him to the park , had a side seeing. I actually asked " who is you mum " ; the only thing he do is " Ba Ba."
@.@ """ swt..
The second day (in the dream) , i brought him together with my brothers for breakfast. They kept saying that my baby is cute , funny , fat , white. lolx. But at that time, i was affraid to ask my bro who actually is my wife. XD
Baby also got already , dont know who is the mother? god -___-""
Alright , i woke up finally , miss the baby , he is really cute, at least he never pee on my clothers. XD
So blur ... dunno what had happen. The moment i woke up , i dont even know wheater i am still inside the dream , or it was really a dream. ^^ Hope the baby i have in the future looks like him, kinda look like me XDD , Wish for that.
Feel kinda happy and excited when all my friends congrat me for becoming a dad~~
The One.
Things happen , well of course it does. Yeah , it happens . What am i gonna do. The last thing i wanted is just the voice, the voice i hear almost everyday. I guess you don't mind. Sorry bout that.
Guess most of you dont get this post... it is private..XD sorry sorry.
I think i mean what i said , but before anything, i am still me myself. So relax. Still the same. ^^
Guess most of you dont get this post... it is private..XD sorry sorry.
I think i mean what i said , but before anything, i am still me myself. So relax. Still the same. ^^
2009年5月29日星期五
When will you.
The one midnight , i woke up , taking a walk downstairs. Living in the hostel at nilai , Pajam. Enjoying walk alone under the moonlight, feeling free and relax, everyone is resting, quite..... i love the mood.
Walking down to the garden, side seeing , realizing the flower , sepilok borneo, is so beautiful and attractive. I decided to walk to the center of the garden , laying down on the grass. Opened up my eyes slowly... I saw stars .. Bright enough to lighten up my face. It is stunning, and i never seen so much of them before.. I saw scorpio too.
There are light in the study room that available for 24seven at the 2nd floor. Few of my classmate were doing their revision for the resit paper tomorrow. They saw me of couse , a weird little guy laying down on the garden ; they smile ..
They walked down the staircase , walked near me , laying down too , just like i did, head to head. 7 boys , looking for their own horoscope in the sky. The night was so silent even we can hear the butterfly wind bit. We never chat , never make a single noise. It seems like they all forgotten about the exam tomorrow, putting the natural smilely on their face.
After bout 15 minutes... it seems like the time stop running.. butterfly stop bitting.. the cloud stop moving... We took a deep breath.. Here comes the wind ...
A great wind blowing through the whole Pajam area. All of us closed our eyes, enjoying the most relaxing time in our life... It is incredible... it seems like all of our depress , our happiness , tension , pressure, ideas and even soul had been bring away by the strong wind..
At that moment , we guys realize what if the real "Peace" .. the few second. We really found peace; at peace....
I really wished to bring along my lover , my friends , the one that is most important for me , to show them , what actually is peace... The harmony ... the most relaxing moment it should be.
Back to the hostel , starting to refresh about stuff and things happen before in life. When is the last time laying in the garden at night ..When is the last time you open your eyes, look up high watching the stars .. When is the last time looking deeply to the flowers in the garden .. When is the last time you hear butterfly wind bit.. When you having the most relaxing time in life... When will you get peace...
I realize whatever bu-shit stuff thats happened to me at my pass , or future.. I dont care no more. All i needed... is only few second of it... much better then anything else.
When will you . . . . . . . . . .
Walking down to the garden, side seeing , realizing the flower , sepilok borneo, is so beautiful and attractive. I decided to walk to the center of the garden , laying down on the grass. Opened up my eyes slowly... I saw stars .. Bright enough to lighten up my face. It is stunning, and i never seen so much of them before.. I saw scorpio too.
There are light in the study room that available for 24seven at the 2nd floor. Few of my classmate were doing their revision for the resit paper tomorrow. They saw me of couse , a weird little guy laying down on the garden ; they smile ..
They walked down the staircase , walked near me , laying down too , just like i did, head to head. 7 boys , looking for their own horoscope in the sky. The night was so silent even we can hear the butterfly wind bit. We never chat , never make a single noise. It seems like they all forgotten about the exam tomorrow, putting the natural smilely on their face.
After bout 15 minutes... it seems like the time stop running.. butterfly stop bitting.. the cloud stop moving... We took a deep breath.. Here comes the wind ...
A great wind blowing through the whole Pajam area. All of us closed our eyes, enjoying the most relaxing time in our life... It is incredible... it seems like all of our depress , our happiness , tension , pressure, ideas and even soul had been bring away by the strong wind..
At that moment , we guys realize what if the real "Peace" .. the few second. We really found peace; at peace....
I really wished to bring along my lover , my friends , the one that is most important for me , to show them , what actually is peace... The harmony ... the most relaxing moment it should be.
Back to the hostel , starting to refresh about stuff and things happen before in life. When is the last time laying in the garden at night ..When is the last time you open your eyes, look up high watching the stars .. When is the last time looking deeply to the flowers in the garden .. When is the last time you hear butterfly wind bit.. When you having the most relaxing time in life... When will you get peace...
I realize whatever bu-shit stuff thats happened to me at my pass , or future.. I dont care no more. All i needed... is only few second of it... much better then anything else.
When will you . . . . . . . . . .
2009年5月24日星期日
The Emotional Release at Star Hill
Had a call todaY from my brother, bring me to star hill hanging out with my parents. I called my buddy Tommy to tag along. 
The DEWAR'S 12 ... classed...
Little start light~~ a road which holds my heart..
We walked around Pavillion to StarHill. Went shopping , looking at different design of shop and restaurant, my parents like that. erm erm..
The DEWAR'S 12 ... classed... Little start light~~ a road which holds my heart..
relax....
The great music hall ... the singer sang great ..
The Twicgeling Bar... look closely , the bottle wall ~~ cool ha
The Heienken Fury~~
In front of Jogoya... Emo also need to eat rite
Bro :" Hey! Stop poser ! we are late dumass! "
me :"#@$%^$%...."
As my parents enter Jogoyo, they told me all the wood made stuff in the restaurant is TEAK WOOD. It is the most expensive wood in the world. It can stand as long as 100 years without any damage and its waterproof.. the value as same as gold.. Wthell. it is stunning, just like the all thw wood i stand infront of, think i will take stupid poser photo like this har? It is all Teak Wood , 1 piece of it cost around 3 to 4 hundred. swt.........................
The best KING CRAB... sorry dude. You were my main course...
The Best Design of Themed Coffice house. Melaka style~~
The BUFORI ... It is a brand new car. oh god~ no time for emo, CAMERA!
Alrite, dats all , guess today was a relaxing and happy one. Enjoying the meal , the mall , the design , the atmosphere, the people , the car , and the mood. ^^'' The best part was... my mother when to LV shop to look at the hand-bags, try it of course...
mum :" This bag design is not nice , it is common and it get dirty easily. "
GUESS WAT... it is a LV white hand-bag cost RM6530.. -______- """" i never know my mum is so rich.....
With a stomach full of crab , unagi , cheese , food and coconut , "Hey khin, let go get the fruit with chocolate! last call ! haha! " Tommy eat non-stop XD , it is time to go home. Pack up all the stuff , i need to go back to hostel at nilai again, worst thing it is a monday. oh well...
Wonder if one day i can bring my other half to places like this.. enjoying the happiness and relaxing mood.. ^^ looking forward to it.
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2009年5月22日星期五
What will you do at the next turning.
As i am a lonely kinda of person, honestly i dont have many friends. Some of them may think that i am a positive guy, and others , a guys who likes to Emo ; think too much maybe. From the last time i can recall, i am living in sadness, and maybe too much of it make me able to face or handle things much better.
People call me crazy, hanging-out all alone in the mall the whole day watching 3 movie in cinema straight. Having my breakfast , lunch and dinner, Going home~~.
" I dont understand what he is thinking."
" Who care , he is full of shit.." well.. of cause you dont..
Right. I am a 100% Emo guy.
Not until i have a few friends in my life, currently.. With them , I realize things can be better, learning how to be happy , to smile. To hold up to the happiness and easy life, I do take up the friendship seriously, treating everyone nicely without thinking of myself. Cause what i need is just be with them, it is all i needed.
Yet when time goes on.. I realize I cant really hold up to something forever. Selfishness is not allowed. Each of them have their own life, dreams to aim big. As a good friend, I did actually support them. Me, i will support whatever they do is right.. as long as i live.
So finally, i am coming back to the original point again. I am all alone.
I used to smoke, Marborllo is my favorite. I was in the street, walking with no reason and out of sudden , a old man appear in front of me asking me for a cigarette.
" You look so down youngone. "
"yeah.. Life is full of sadness and loneliness yet i am here to stand most of it... sometimes i wonder if i am able to delete some of the memories of my."
"Well , you wounldnt want to, even if you can."
"yeah.. 1 more ciragette?"
"Sure. I guess you really are dat lonely youngone, we do really chat even i am a old strainer and asking people for ciragette."
"we have no differents do we? we are both walking in the street for no reason. Wonder how you are able to stand the loneliness for so long? "
" Hahaha, you never watch movie? there is a say [ AFTER TODAY THERE IS TOMORROW] . All you need to do , is relax. Treat yourself better , just relax. ha ha ha.."
relax?.... relax...
Relax, just relax.. I have been telling myself, telling my friends , telling anyone or everyone who has or facing problems. It is useful , relax, tomorrow is coming.
I wish everything is going to be fine. One day i start wishing to see what willl i become in the future 6 years. As now , i am doing automotive engineering, thought that everything is going to be fun.... But out of sudden.. disappointed stuff happened... sadness never actually leave me. That night , i am in hostel feeling as cold as ever.
And now , i start to blur myself without asking why am i Emo, why am i sad , why my heart is feeling weird , feeling pain. Tried to relax, but my heart is like.. filled with Cola. I promised my friends not to smoke and drink again. I am putting hope on them , hoping they are good and worth . But things happen to pain me, show that i actually dont know them, and need to re-understand them all over again; they are not what i expect all these time.
Yet.. maybe some of them will say that i am an idiot, i am still supporting them to do what it is right, as long as they are happy. And for me, will carry on like this alone... i dont mind, when i miss someone, all i do is smile..
So , an artical is being post in my automotive college, being like this....
( If you are in a car race. The split time between you and your opponent is just 1.3 seconds. Your car advantage is its top speed. But every time once you reach 120 km/h there is a 80 degree turning forcing you to break. And everytime you thought you are going to catch up, end up the split time get more after each turning.
And you are the driver , in life as in the race.. Things happened to be disappointed in a sudden after you gave hope. What will you do at the next turning? ...................................................................................................................................................................
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From : ONG KAR KHIN. )
People call me crazy, hanging-out all alone in the mall the whole day watching 3 movie in cinema straight. Having my breakfast , lunch and dinner, Going home~~.
" I dont understand what he is thinking."
" Who care , he is full of shit.." well.. of cause you dont..
Right. I am a 100% Emo guy.
Not until i have a few friends in my life, currently.. With them , I realize things can be better, learning how to be happy , to smile. To hold up to the happiness and easy life, I do take up the friendship seriously, treating everyone nicely without thinking of myself. Cause what i need is just be with them, it is all i needed.
Yet when time goes on.. I realize I cant really hold up to something forever. Selfishness is not allowed. Each of them have their own life, dreams to aim big. As a good friend, I did actually support them. Me, i will support whatever they do is right.. as long as i live.
So finally, i am coming back to the original point again. I am all alone.
I used to smoke, Marborllo is my favorite. I was in the street, walking with no reason and out of sudden , a old man appear in front of me asking me for a cigarette.
" You look so down youngone. "
"yeah.. Life is full of sadness and loneliness yet i am here to stand most of it... sometimes i wonder if i am able to delete some of the memories of my."
"Well , you wounldnt want to, even if you can."
"yeah.. 1 more ciragette?"
"Sure. I guess you really are dat lonely youngone, we do really chat even i am a old strainer and asking people for ciragette."
"we have no differents do we? we are both walking in the street for no reason. Wonder how you are able to stand the loneliness for so long? "
" Hahaha, you never watch movie? there is a say [ AFTER TODAY THERE IS TOMORROW] . All you need to do , is relax. Treat yourself better , just relax. ha ha ha.."
relax?.... relax...
Relax, just relax.. I have been telling myself, telling my friends , telling anyone or everyone who has or facing problems. It is useful , relax, tomorrow is coming.
I wish everything is going to be fine. One day i start wishing to see what willl i become in the future 6 years. As now , i am doing automotive engineering, thought that everything is going to be fun.... But out of sudden.. disappointed stuff happened... sadness never actually leave me. That night , i am in hostel feeling as cold as ever.
And now , i start to blur myself without asking why am i Emo, why am i sad , why my heart is feeling weird , feeling pain. Tried to relax, but my heart is like.. filled with Cola. I promised my friends not to smoke and drink again. I am putting hope on them , hoping they are good and worth . But things happen to pain me, show that i actually dont know them, and need to re-understand them all over again; they are not what i expect all these time.
Yet.. maybe some of them will say that i am an idiot, i am still supporting them to do what it is right, as long as they are happy. And for me, will carry on like this alone... i dont mind, when i miss someone, all i do is smile..
So , an artical is being post in my automotive college, being like this....
( If you are in a car race. The split time between you and your opponent is just 1.3 seconds. Your car advantage is its top speed. But every time once you reach 120 km/h there is a 80 degree turning forcing you to break. And everytime you thought you are going to catch up, end up the split time get more after each turning.
And you are the driver , in life as in the race.. Things happened to be disappointed in a sudden after you gave hope. What will you do at the next turning? ...................................................................................................................................................................
.................................................................................................
From : ONG KAR KHIN. )
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