拥有希望的遗憾。。

打了个电话，她接了。对话的前一秒，才发现依然了解，依然心重。以前的感觉，依然还在。听了她的声音，我得安了心。

回想那见面的第一天，遇见可爱的脸孔。回想每一次聊天，她那灿烂的喜悦。回想随她等巴士，那小雨中的温暖。 回想当天她牵着我的手，那紧张的心。回想那暗恋的寂寞，才发现比他晚了。。回想在商场狂追版寻找，在人群中不见了她。回想步行回家，在高速公路走了3小时。。

她对我说了不能常常接我电话的原因。
她接受我的关心，已减少了我需多遗憾。。

遗憾那时每对你说明，遗憾我不懂处理感情，遗憾。。当时没把你抱紧。。

往往那一瞬间的希望，都来得不合时，可能是我给自己的安慰。。
“我依然喜欢你。。” 我对她说了。。 仿佛我听见了她的微笑，可能是我的多心。。
身在其中，我明白了，得不到的爱，才是最刻骨铭心的爱。

我从来不强求些什么，可能如果有一天，如果在一次，我一定会把这希望紧紧地抱着，不要再有遗憾了。。

如果在一次。。。

牵挂著你是那颗我的心
飘呀飘地在你面前捉摸不定
牵挂著你是那份我的情
吹呀吹到你的眼前我的心
我不愿看到你那湿润的眼睛
怕我会忍不住疼你怕你伤心
我不愿听见你说寂寞的声音
怕我会忍不住对你说我的真感情
牵挂著你是那双我的手
越过你的长发越过你心窝
牵挂著你是那份我的温柔
飞过你的肩膀飞过你的手
我不愿看见你独自离去的身影
怕我会忍不住牵你手将你带走
我不愿看到你依依不舍的表情
怕我又会忍不住再停留怕你难过
你像盛开花朵绽放整个天空
温暖著我将我拥抱在你的怀中
不愿承认是我最深情的脆弱
能否与你一生守候
你像盛开花朵绽放整个天空
温暖著我将我拥抱在你的怀中
不愿承认是我最深情的脆弱
悲伤的我从此漂流
舍不得你是那颗我的心
飘呀飘地在你面前捉摸不定
舍不得你是那份我的情
而徘徊在你面前属於你的我
爱你

曲名：牵挂 歌手：伍佰

The Legendary M29!!

Surprise for the whole Room 28. Note, I am sleeping in this room for 2 days.

Production from : Tan XX and Ong XX.
Friendly support: From all smokers from M29.
Sponsor company: British American Tobacco Company and others.

Please do not drink while you are reading this. Or eat by the way.



Welcome to the door brothers.



Made up by the over due Fisher, Tex, June and Winston.


LoLx, this will be the 3D version.




The Casino Royal~



All of the ingredient, the best way of recycling.



The legendary window No 1.


The legendary window of the year. No.2


All along the wall.. Tan:" Wei! I though they all coming back to help?"
Ong:" I called liao.. Dunno them..."
Tan:" @#$%^&.."


The highest level of cigarette sticking.... Guess what, it is on top of the roof wall. XD


The worst of all... Before the last day, the room is fuck up by super smell made up from Ribenna plus 100plus, Pepsi with chili sos, oil, rotten eggs ( put a hole at the egg and put in salt water and put under the sun for one day ). The television we use to have is on water wet condition and stick in the table. Rubbish everyway, and the fan beside Johnson bed fell down on the last day. Luckily. The cleaner may call the polices once they find out. Even Tan, TJ, and me can't stand 1 second of the smell there... P.S .... Johnson.. remember the can of pin ball you have... Is all on the floor.. hope none of the cleaner fall down.. XD

Tan, is the water still on?......

XD

TO all M29.. The END>>>

See you guys again. Thank you.

The Mirror.

Starting from the day I choose to be, facts that I can't have everything in both hands. It was heavy and too heavy in deep. Everytime I look into the mirror, to prove I am still alive with the choices I made. And as you said reality is more important.

But doesn't mean I gave up. It is the way whether things are going with me, or not.

All the blames and hard feelings, I couldn't help it. But why the one once use to smile turn on me with the black heart? Keeping those feelings ever help. But they rather keep than telling to my face when it is able to.

Fair enough, not everything have to be say to let others understand, even if they do.

The world is turning, and things do change. But my heart, do not, for the things necessary of course, without force. Funny that people will actually blame for nothing to someone who care.

This is not what it seems, my friend. Friends do know. We use to say that remember? How long you still wanna hold on to it? Not slapping on my face? Go ahead.

But does it really needed? What can be change? Relax, I am cool. Or do you think things are really what you think that way. Is it? Maybe... who knows.

I believe that we use our heart even on the first day we intro our names. I do. I have done nothing to hurt, but rather giving care from a far far place where we couldn't even meet.

Even now I am kinda alone here.. Now. So? What the hell for waking up in the midnight writing something which comes to my head for damn. Because I still care and I do believe the next time we meet, the heart is still there; because I still tell others that " Friend knows". And because of that I know what you are thinking.

No more bed time story acting cute for kids and tell. To me, tell it. If you think I did any harm in the past and present. And be sure of that before anything to at least let me respect, the heart is still there.

Because at the end, the one I believe and love, they are here. Because they knows. And from now until the day I am still able to see you, I hope I can still see your heart, as a friend who knows.



(This post is referring to specific friend, no offenses to others, thank you.)

The reason, Why..

To all girls, if you have a boy friend.
If you wish to know why. This is why.

Girls wonder, why a guy need to learn how to be strong. Or to stand and hold on.
They know. They may look strong,but in their heart deep, it is weak..weaker than you think.
They hope the one they love will think their are the best always.

If you wonder, why a guy will not cry easily, or try as hard as possible to hold their tears.
Not because they don't cry. They know,once their tears reached the floor.The relationship is over.
They are trying the best to dry it off when it is on their face.

If girls wonder, why a guy need to smoke when he is in pressure..
Because guys know, from the cigarette they took, they are able to recall some of the happy memory with the one they love, to at least have something for their heart to balance. At least a little will do..

Girls questioning why guy will still call and chat with them even after breaking up.
He didn't wanted to be friend with you. He, just trying his best, to recover, one relationship which once belong to him..

If you wonder, why guys will call you to calm down even you got bullied. Or turning mad after you told them.
Because they know, who cares if they lose every fight, lying on the floor. They will feel happy, rather than watching you cry. To call you calm , to prevent you from getting hurt.

Girls wonder, why do guys always get drunk after break up.
They know if they don't get drunk tonight, then tonight, they will only able to walk alone along the memory with you in it.

If girls asked, why guys will pay everything for a girl when outing until they are broke.
Guys are not that rich. They will rather use less or miss their lunch, or even just one burger at night, they won't want other to look down on the one they love the most.

If girls don't understand why guys wanna be mad to them even they know they will get "Hammer"...
They being mad of you not because they don't love you. But to hope that you won't get cheat again in the future. They will sacrifice their heart, for your safety in the time comes.

Girls questioning why guys are being worried when girls talk about their EX..
Not to say they don't trust you. As simple as that, they are afraid, one day, he will become the one you are talking about.. If the girl leave the guy, he will have nothing, actually you knew, he don't even have friends.

Girls wonder, why a guy will still listen to your explanation calmly after you wrote about someone else in your dairy.
Not because he is not angry, but he hope that from what you tell him, he is able to know, who is more important to you. For him , you are..

If you wonder, why a guy will keep saying " I love You", and stopped one day..
He is not boring about these 3 words, and not whatever you think he is.
Because he know, for you, a million " I love You" is just not enough.

And if girls don't understand why a guy like me will come here and write a bu-shit blog.
He is hoping one day, you will get to see this blog. And know what is in his heart,. Because if you don't, the post will be over... soon...
Girls call guys and cry.. Guys can only cry alone after putting down the phone..

Happiness; to a guy is not a easy thing. Nor a fixed standard can tell, or what they are thinking..
A guy who love you, will only smile in front of you, not matter when and where, even before his heart is going to stop working...
Girls get to tell guys about everything, and guys can't even get to tell a thing.

If any girl is mad at me now after reading this blog, I am still smiling.
If you get to understand, I thank you.
That's the reason why guy will put a "Like" on every touching video they saw in Facebook.
That's the reason why he will hug you every time they see you.
That's also the truth to a guy.. who is hold on every second. Because for him, who are going to take care of you, if anything happen to he himself..

May ALL THE GIRL WHO READ, if you are now thinking of him. Give him a call, or at least a text, to let them know, you still love him... At least as a return to the one love you most.. A small small return. Because I can bet any of the guys read your text, he will stop his tears...

And smile.

Saying that.


I love you. My love..

" He"

When you love someone, please don't hurt them.
Loving someone, there is nothing we should cheating on.

If you love someone, will you cheat on him?

There is one kinda of person, once he start loving you,
He don't matters anything, he won't expect anything from return,
After all he has given.

The cold view from his eyes everyday,
But have you think of, how many things he did which you don't get to know,
He didn't ask for anything, not even wanted to let you know.

When you found the one you love, he will wish you congrats happily,
But his tears fall unintentionally...

He never think of interrupting, keep comforting himself,
The greatest love you might never ever notice.

When others talk bad about you, he won't even want to listen a single word,
And keep saying :" Is impossible.."

Because he trust in you,
More then anything in the world.

Maybe you don't get to realize his present,
Maybe he is just passing by every time,
And when you are going to notice it, he will try his best to hide it.

Every night, he won't even know what he is waiting,
It can take days, months or years,
And feel extremely happy, with the one he meet you.

Because he know what he should give,
But not what he should get...

He might get a chance with a good relationship,
But he gave it all up,
For him, your happiest it all he care of.

And you talk to him about your sad stuff, did you ever realize,
He never tell you about his,
He want to hear more about your sadness and secret,
Because he love you, he love all your sadness too...

There is not need for him to know about when you are happy,
Because is non of his business.

Love someone required a great bravery,
Maybe he should give up, rather to walk away,
But that's why.

Do you ever felt lonely, it is like killing you even it is a day or a night.
But he had been that lonely for a year, maybe two, or three..
The day he decided to love you, he knew, and accept it...

How he can stand it?
Only with a little, that little image of memories of you... Just little of it...

Is there anyone you knew did that,
Or is there anyone have the heart for you?

If you finally realize about it, don't misunderstand..
He doesn't want you to love him,
All he want is your happiest, to at least let him know that everything he do, worth it.

No matter who you are with, as long as you are happy,
Because the happiness from you is better than the sadness from both.

Because there are guys i knew,
What he feel, who he is waiting...
It is truth... so truth.

Before You Say : I Do..

Together with you.
I feel no mistake.

Holding you forever
I feel no regret.

When they say guys said the same thing
I may be different..
Because you trust me.

The day you say you are busy
I feel like helping.

Love is so remarkable from you
I have no doubt of that.

To be your man
I will do all of that.

Love to see you in white dress
Just like walking into the pass life.

Love to put jacket onto you
When we both are in the cold.

Taking up all the weight and load
Forget about what is tired.

Waking you up in the morning
That is what I will do after making your breakfast.

Washing all the clothes
Is the only thing I won't let you do.

To hug you to cure all you pressure
Cause I need you to cure mine the same time.

What will be the hardest thing to do for you
Is will be to leave you off to work.

When I am playing the black and white key
I hope I will play it all to you.

Decide the ranking of your food
I will be the first to grade.

Keep refreshing to keep your life fresh
Cause you are fresh to keep me refresh.

Hold your hand when outing
As you hold mine through our life.

Hold you face when you rest
To make sure you are real and with me always.

Love your heat, Love you smile
Love your tears when there is only me around.

Take a picture with the red rose
Make it the first , make it the most.

Kiss on your lips, Kiss at your head
Kisses on your face like all the stamper I made.

See the sunset with all the joy
Cause here you are with me to look at the sky.

Making your room clean
As making you bath as warm as it can.

Watching TV with my love
As walking into the love story to love you , my love.

Be your couple, Be your teddy bear
Be your husband and don't other people dare.

Calling you Baby, calling you honey
Calling you Bao Bao for the rest of my life.

If the little wish can really come true
There are million of yellow light I can run through for you.

Read again and look again.
Before you say :" I do"

If you agree and said
I will give it all to you

To my Baby, to my wife
To the last girl in my life.

Song to you Every night.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here.

Wonder of balance~

I was driving home, the sky is kind of dark, turning left into a small road. There was a small stall beside, a husband and wife, selling sacks and food; there was no business, at least it is at 5 pm in the evening. But gods know, by just looking at their eyes, the smile , the happy topic they were chatting; makes no depression , no stress..

I got that kinda feeling, something more..

If there was a guy you see, walking at the street with no expression, holding a cigarette which burned till the end.. he is sad. At least i believe he is. The world is fair, no it is not. The world is not fair, the world is balance. The balance of limitation, the balance of soul, the balance keeper.

Balance of price. The price for everything.

It affects.

Humans need to work on for their happiness. Every little thing you say or do. Be creative, be surprising, be smart. Human are try their every effort. Having great time in the end, "happily ever after".The point of living, the center point of living, or maybe it is the point of living which everyone are try to get.

What about sadness, tons of thing happened around you which make you feel sad. Destroying the every last piece of your soul. Every little things you say or do. And never go away in a short period, it is killing you. Cigarette can heal a sad soul? At least someone believe it , and someone feel it.

Where is the point of balance the world trying to hold? Happiness is the thing you want.... And sadness, is the price. Happiness are in need of effort, sadness don't. Sadness is easy to get , but goes into you and stay for a very long time.

The one who can control happiness, you knew they had understand this theory. God give happiness to the one who are ready to lose. One day all of us have an end. That is the balance of limitation.

So as the world.

What have you been doing all this time? It is the thing you want to? Is it there yet?

The sky started to rain after i decide to continue driving.. Both husband and wife are rushing to keep all their thing and food into their van.. The day comes to an end.. I smiled, cause i am one of them who trust the world are balance, and i live in one of them.

See things in a balance way, and you will see the sky and the sea were actually half.

Willing

The day when its dark.
Never after you bring light to me.

The day when you cry.
Never after you meet me.

The day when I am down.
Never after you miss me.

The day never comes.
Never after I say you can trust me.

No matter how you feel.
Never after your heart is with me.

To you
I am willing.

For you
There is no more hiding.

I can stand the pain
Never after I say I need you beside me.

The ending of the road
Not after I found a turning which you brought to me.

I see you smile , touch and laughter
Once from the day I called you baby.

Holding you along
It makes me.

The emotional you and I have in our heart
It really means.

If I promise you again
As well as promise to myself

I will still tell all of them : I Love You
Even one day you say you hate me.

Whatever they said
I will prove to all of them by time.

I share all the emotion with you
Even if it is pain.

Remember everything we have said
When the time we both said : I rather be the one.. I will not let anything happen to you.

Because in my eyes
There is only you.

Give me all your tears
If it can makes you happy.

Give you all my love and promises
If it can make you touching.

Without you I just can't think
Because you mean everything to me.

Telling you everything
Hugging you until the second I can't even kiss.

They may think I am
They said that I am.

Even if I said something wrong to you
The things which I do makes you worried.

My heart are still the same
From the minutes I hold you face with deep breath.

Your faces are still red
Your smell are still the same.

I may not be enough
Rather be the best.

Maybe I am blur
Standing outside the fitting room holding your bag.

But my head are still imagining
When you are in the white dress.

Waking late at night
Making sure our dishes are ready and never turned bad.

Keep telling I want to take you as my wife
Still there are years away.

Giving everything I could
To make everything we want to our way.

To make you feel relax
Even the time I can't feel my heart is beeping.

I want to write everything down
When it is late and I can't hold up my head.

For all and all
For you the only baby.

I don't get to know what will be there tomorrow
Having love or even hate you to me.

What I said
What I means

The day I told you I will sitting in the park waiting for you even I am 80
And there is someone else holding you in your wedding.

I love you.

Baby.

I love you.

I am willing....

To the Nameless One..

Good to hear from you and thanks for all the comment. It is caring and is lovely.

Hope you will settle you stuff fast and get to view my blog again. Well, haha, I won't wanna lose a friend. Lol.

Me and my love one are doing fine and well. Thanks for the blessing. She is very nice to me, caring, good personality and understanding. No worries, my friend.

Well, even I feel kinda weird and empty without you view my blog for sometimes.. But still, I have to want you to take good care. As i always say, " relax". ha ha.

I still don't know who you are. And as last time, maybe I still think that I don't need to know who you actually are, " It is just someone I knew".

My friend, may God bless you in everything you do. Really really hope you will be fine and back as soon as possible. All the best to you too. Seecya.

The Perfect of the Inperfection

In the world we hope to have a great appearance. Some of them have it, some of them don't. And even some of us complain about our own appearance, or some of us are not confidence at all with it.

Nowadays, there are new movies telling that maybe in future, we can use robot to replace we ourselves, with perfect figure , perfect body, perfect look , perfect talent and perfect condition. Or maybe biological research find out that there is way to make human immortality so and so.

Talking about finding a hot guy or a sexy girl to fell in love with?

Yeah , that will be great.
But how long can beauty stay up to?

Human don't need that, we don't need that exactly. Most of us is not perfect. Take me for example, I am kinda skinny. Lol... I may want to have a strong muscular body. A girl may want to have a hot sexy body figure, at else I thought.

Not until I meet a special someone. She is pretty, sexy, nice body figure and a sweetest smile. One that I can't even believe that I am with her now. I was thinking like, How can she accept me as another part of her.

But once I am with her, she care about me, know about me and make me see many things clear.

You are actually kinda good looking.
You are very caring.
You are very good at comfort me and make me laugh.
You always make me feel sweet.
You are a good listener when I need you.
You take me seriously.

All the things she told me.....

I guess this is the best part, just because no one in the world can be perfect.

But for me and her, we both are perfect for each other, better than anyone else.
Holding her hand make me feel on the top of the world.
Being to miss her even minutes after leaving her house.
Feeling comfort hugging her heart while sleep.

That's the only way I guess human can be perfect.

Its funny. The main word I name in blogs can't be use by human but created by human themselves.

Actually it can. We human just need to change its form.




In my heart, you are perfect darling..
Loving you, makes me perfect..

The Eternity

If I have soul. It will not be mine anymore. It is taken away. If I awake one night. It will be cold than any other day. It is lonely.

How can I get to own you? How can I get to hold your hands always?

Human can't go against nature flow. Even if we say fate never decide everything. When we come into life, we try to grab as much as we can without realizing we will lost all of them one day.

If we have soul. I guess it will be the only thing carry on after the last day. It never ends.

They say reality is more important than imaging funny ideas and unreachable dreams. And some of them even try to remember sweet ideas and remarkable nice dreams. Yeah. It may sound a waste of time. But the one without it is even worse.

If we have dreams. I guess it will be the only thing hold you to rest well. Never want to go away if you're in it.

How long is life?

It will be just the remaining amount of breath we can take. Or sometimes some of them don't even get to.

If we are breathing. I guess it will be the luckiest thing which is happening to you. I am breathing with you.

How difficult to us to live on our life?

There will be depression, difficulties, tension, reality, way of surviving. Fighting for power. Defensing ourselves. Protect our loves one. Going against fate which we don't like to be controlled.

If we live in hard life. I guess it will be the only thing to keep and make us stronger and fearless. I am living with you.

May I get to keep something, hold on to something or love something; until the last second of me.

We human make the word "Eternity", which means things never go to an end.
But we don't get to use the word, cause we know nothing will be.

To everyone who read this post, try to think about it.

smile~ For me. She let me realize that there is eternal, falling deep in our heart, we will be eternal for each other.

Letting our heart to lead us isn't so bad. At least I am living better than other days now.


If I have soul. It will not be mine anymore. It is taken by you. If I awake one night. It will be cool than any other day. Because I am missing you.

If there is a chances for me to use the word eternity. I would have to say.

I love you.

Temperature..

The day when I hold you.
Every moment I stick to you.
Every time you are with me.
Every second I miss you.
Every week when I meet you.
Every feeling I though of you.
Every touch I had from you.
Every minutes I say I love you.
Every words I message you.
The heart I gave you.
Every comfort you gave me.
Every senses we kissed.
Every strong bang I had in my heart for you.
Every thing I done for you.
The only one is you.
Every fingers we hold together.
Every places I went with you.
Every promise I promised you.
Every imagining future I had for you.
Every phone call I said I want to marry you.
Every morning texting with you.
Every journey along with you.
Every way I get you.
Every coming years I will be with you.
Every red faces I saw you.
Every night I need you.
The lips which I hunger of you.
Every thing I do with you.
Every meal I ate with you.
Every occasion I bring along you.
Every plan we want to do.
Every sentences I told you.
Every sanitizer I took from you.
Every crush me to you.
Every song I play for you.
Every secret I share with you.
Every present I gave you.
Every blog I wrote about you.
Every dream which having you.
Every luck I wished you.
Every train I waited for you.
Every jokes I tell you.
Every tales I talk bout you.
Every movie hugging you.
Every Gami Bear tasted with you.
Every understanding I had from you.
Every confidence gave by you.
Every remarkable memory when taking photo of you.

The madness increase in body temperature having you.

Lou por. I love you.

There You'll Be.

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The Special 19.

The day which things begin. My day became more meaningful day by day. My sun on the sky seem more brighter, and even it rains, feeling like the cold wind flows in to my heart to make me feel comfort.

The day which emotional happens. The restaurant gave me a personal space. Having warm lights with a sense of darkness. A special feeling when I touched. It is warm, like tears of someone come down through her face. Like there was no spaces between both of us.

The day which I slow down my steps. The path seems to became longer then ever. For the first time I wish the way I walked never end. My hands required strength to hold.

The day which I always keep my eyes close. As if I don't need them anymore. I can feel the heart beats, I can feel the breath. I can feel the touches, and increasing temperature.

The day which I became to have 2 personality. Which separated miles away. Took care by someone who thinks the same way with me. I don't feel lonely anymore days go by.

The day which I am singing new song in my heart every night before I sleep, or get to sleep. I love the tempo; like the stars are singing for me too.

The day which I can't stop laughing. Smiling putted on my face the whole day. Acting crazy and madness. Guess same goes to the one who understand my heart. smile....

The day which I change my hair style the other day. My friends, for the first time, yeah, I cut my hair. Hope you all will like it, well.. I love it.

The day too.. which I get injures on my body. Marks every way. Seems like bleeding. It hurts .. it hurts a lot..

There will be lots and lots of 19th coming along my life. And I want as such 19 as I can. That is a promise. For all the touches my feel, all the comfort, all the warmness.. for the eternally, there will be a 19 ahead.

May i hold U Always next Xmas.

You took my heart away

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Telling~ Knowing~

Human get to know thing when, they knew things, they saw things. But for know from others, the only get to know by listening. Which means someone need to tell another one to let him or her know.

" Bu-shit. There is no use even I tell her. "

" There will no be a good ending, forget it , i Don't wanna tell him. "

" I love her, but she already have a boyfriend, so i guess i just wait..."

" There is no need for me to tell, i will just follow the flow.."

People will come out with funny thinking.

Or some of them , wish to let him/her to know , wish to tell but dare not, korean drama style, and still wrote things indirectly on blog wish that him/her will accidently find out?

oh dear god~

Why can we just, okay , i will suggest to the one who really are the type of people that i wrote about above, to go to the cinema, watch the movie call " The Ugly Truth".

swt...

Right , Serious. Same goes to guys and girls, what is the worst thing in life? It is nothing more than having something in your heart which you wanted to tell someone but you don't or dare not and hurt you badly.. or madly maybe. You can't even do anything else more, you can't concentrate, you are no on form doing your stuff, and go blur straight away when the one is standing in front of you.

Why can't we just tell what we feel or want to let him/her know to the one? It is just words, and this is more than words, words with feelings , with hope, with tears, with love.

As I said in my older post, lots of time we need to think by using our heart instead of our brain. Don't care what will happen, just tell. Let the one know what you are think, what is your feeling to him/her.

There is no need for guys to act cool, just say it. Affraid of losing a friend after tell her your true feeling? Forget it. Girls are not that simple. You will only lose a friend because the thing or Emoness you put on yourself after telling, sorry guys i have to say, its lame, girls think that way.

People like to know things, same goes to what other are thinking of them, they wanted to know so much. That why, tell them. I bet we are the same.


" Why did you tell me you like me in the first place? "

" Cause now you had a boyfriend, that why i choose not to tell.."

" AND HOW THE HELL I SURPOSE TO KNOW?" see...?



Telling is not stupid nor brave, it is the first and last thing we do, and believe me, you will have a good night sleep tonight.

To the Nameless One..

Hi my friend. Why do you apologize? Did i wrote or said anythings wrong?
I am sorry if i really do.. Or i got the wrong message?

Blood on Our OwN

As we live on , we meet friends, and some of them may be understandable, nice, charming, caring, smart, honest, selfish, ugly, whatever. Different people have different action , personality and thinking.

When we first meet with whoever, we may "target locked" as the first time we knew them.
" He is this kinda person "
It is what we usually say.

People are connected the same way, knowing, but the result is different. Even there is nothing more than friendship, even its normal, how 1 people tread his or her friend is totally different.

It is normal.

But for some of them may think that why is my friend act so cool to me yet for me he/she is the one I though we should be good friends, or we should be close.

Why my friend never cares about what happen to me, why the things I though it mean something but mean nothing to my friend, and will disappointed to say that he/she doesn't care.

Think too much.

If anyone agree or in the same situation, I guess i have to say, we are thinking too much.

Each of us in one earth, having own life, having the one we actually love , care , hate , etc.
Sometimes, as someone said to me, it may be the matter of time. Our friend or the one we care the most, they may care of us too, but in a different way, may not spoken out , but they do care.

And even we should think about, they may want to say something, something that show lots and lots of care to us, but sorry to say , we never gave them any chances. And it may not be the right time they think they should say it.

Whoever person in this world I guess, they have a heart , just like what we think we have. Our friends , the one we love , the one around us, they do Care.

But please don't judge them before they even have a chances to, for the one who we think is that important to us, it is not fair.

To the Nameless One

Hey. Thanks for all the comment and i have to say everything you said were correct. You were right about me. And if you say that i may know who are you... Well, i don't. It may be , It may be not. Maybe you are close to me , maybe you are far from. You know me.

But still, knowing who you are actually or not is no big deal. This is our way right? ^^

I may know who are you one day, or , I will keep you here , as one person who understand me, here. And no matter if i know who are you some other day , you can be you, and leave "the one here" remain to the nameless.

You were right, i do need to tkae things easily. And thats the way , the right way to do things the right way, the power to hold things on nicely.

I do wish our connection here never ends. I do need people to give me comment, at least someone who understand me, like you , your comment.

Thankyou very much, my friend. I thankyou. ^^