Blood on Our OwN

As we live on , we meet friends, and some of them may be understandable, nice, charming, caring, smart, honest, selfish, ugly, whatever. Different people have different action , personality and thinking.

When we first meet with whoever, we may "target locked" as the first time we knew them.
" He is this kinda person "
It is what we usually say.

People are connected the same way, knowing, but the result is different. Even there is nothing more than friendship, even its normal, how 1 people tread his or her friend is totally different.

It is normal.

But for some of them may think that why is my friend act so cool to me yet for me he/she is the one I though we should be good friends, or we should be close.

Why my friend never cares about what happen to me, why the things I though it mean something but mean nothing to my friend, and will disappointed to say that he/she doesn't care.

Think too much.

If anyone agree or in the same situation, I guess i have to say, we are thinking too much.

Each of us in one earth, having own life, having the one we actually love , care , hate , etc.
Sometimes, as someone said to me, it may be the matter of time. Our friend or the one we care the most, they may care of us too, but in a different way, may not spoken out , but they do care.

And even we should think about, they may want to say something, something that show lots and lots of care to us, but sorry to say , we never gave them any chances. And it may not be the right time they think they should say it.

Whoever person in this world I guess, they have a heart , just like what we think we have. Our friends , the one we love , the one around us, they do Care.

But please don't judge them before they even have a chances to, for the one who we think is that important to us, it is not fair.

To the Nameless One

Hey. Thanks for all the comment and i have to say everything you said were correct. You were right about me. And if you say that i may know who are you... Well, i don't. It may be , It may be not. Maybe you are close to me , maybe you are far from. You know me.

But still, knowing who you are actually or not is no big deal. This is our way right? ^^

I may know who are you one day, or , I will keep you here , as one person who understand me, here. And no matter if i know who are you some other day , you can be you, and leave "the one here" remain to the nameless.

You were right, i do need to tkae things easily. And thats the way , the right way to do things the right way, the power to hold things on nicely.

I do wish our connection here never ends. I do need people to give me comment, at least someone who understand me, like you , your comment.

Thankyou very much, my friend. I thankyou. ^^

Walking along.

Days passed. I start to settle a lot of things which are unsettle. Friends , family, brothers, me myself. Knowing of so many things which I never realize all these while. Got a kind of release after every thing I did.

We do pay a lot in our life to learn; and to move on. But , I am still who I am, no doult. I do remember every single thing I said and keeping every little promise. I do.

Week passed, I rarely have enough sleep. I miss those who are important to me yet I still stop contacting them currently. I may need more time, as I always say. But I do miss you all. I do miss you.

Seeing things at different point of view isn't that bad; at least I do feel better, in a way.

Things happened around me, everyday. They all went into my brain and I do remember every second of it and I don't know why. Waiting for the time which I am able to walk back to my normal way of life.

And things happen to me make me realized all the negative side of myself. And because of this, I try to go around places, look for people which I have things to settle with them, and settle it. And I do feel great that luck is on my side; I get to meet those people somehow.

And it let me know that who actually care, who actually able to care , and those who wish to care but I never give them a chances to. Without those voices I do feel lonely as ever. I miss them.

Time has allow me to move on soon, or maybe I am moving. I really do not wish to lost any friendship anymore. I don't want to lost anyone anymore. I wish the one I do love and care are able to walk along with me through my living days, at least in my heart.

Until the day I am really back..



I miss You. I really miss you.

To the Nameless one

I leave the reply under each time of your comment. Well. Wish you can check it everytime you read. Thank you. Really thank you.

The Day when you left. To my God Father... R.I.P

I cant write anything here. Words can't represent my feelings.

Sorry god father... I don't get to see you before you leave... I am sorry.

I start to realize what kind of person I am.. I will reconsider myself.. Or I can't face any of them who really care for me..

I stop crying, seriously... I guess you won't want me to...

As I said growing and leaning in life need a price, but the price this time.. is really too large..

I need sometime, maybe a lot of time, also wanted to say sorry to all of my best friends and Bros... I really need sometime to reconsider myself..

Until the day... I am sorry.

R.I.P to my god father.

The Unsolve.

Some people have a special ability,we call it Insight. Which means they are able to know what are others thinking, emotion, action, practice, personality and style. It sounds cool. I know many of you have that ability, or maybe a little bit of it.

There was once Einstein said that humans are not even using more than 12% of their own brain, well , maybe he used more. And Marie Curie said :" If someone is able to know what others thinking, he or she maybe god, and this is the ability god is having."

So now, I said many of you having that ability , am I wrong?

Well, guess not, things change, and they made the statement 150 years plus ago.

Many of you do have that ability , me too, a little bit of it.

It is kind of a powerful thing to get someone to know another one and maybe impress by knowing what they want, what they like without telling. Sounds nice, it may help you to make up with guys or girls. With Insight, you can even get to know what is going to happen or what will he or she do in the next moment.

I got this ability after lots and lots of things happen to me. Other word my brain learn this ability itself. For me , I feel like kind of fun and happy while starting, knowing things I wish to know from some people, like personality. lolx.

So, getting to know someone personality letting us to decide wheather that person is good or suitable to mix with. And, things happen to be good, friend, bro/sis, very close with each other, couple or whatever.

But when the time comes, some of you might be the same, start to be afraid, fear about the ability of Insight. Knowing the personality of the one you know well changed. Changes of being not suiting to your personality. Start doing things which cause you to feel bad. Start to make up question like " why will he become like this " , " Is this the one i knew last time", " She is just this kind of person??" , bla bla bla...

" Things change and you cant expect all people remain the same over time " will be the most common answer we will get.

And the more you look into and getting know about what that person think or act , hope for getting some answers, yet the only thing you will get is more and more unsolve question and disappointment.

End of the day which I feel like knowing the thinking of someone isn't helping at all. Yet make me feel pressure and tension. Fear to lost a friend , or someone which you want to be with but you can't. It may be the ability of Insight fail me, or would be too high of expectation for someone fail the ability of Insight. It is no good.

These happen to make someone lost of direction. Asking what should be done.
Or maybe the ability is not complete or perfect, by looking in someone will not be the trueself of that person if he is pretending. And worst thing happened when he go back to his real " him".

Maybe it is not a right way, and somehow I stop to use the ability of Insight. Gaining nothing.
And maybe we are human , just because we are human, there is no need to use such ability. Who knows if 12% uses of the human brain is more than enough. Imagine if someone used up to more than 12%, what will be the counter react, facing question without any answer.

To the Nameless One.

Hi. From now I think we contact though comments ba, I will write my message at the comment to you under my blog post. Thanks for the comment. Others stuff I wrote under comment. Please to read. ^^