Barrier

Things in this world go different everytime the human's thinking changed. Weird. Many of them try to figure out how will this happen, maybe there will not be any answer. And this happen when many of us start to realize ; when someone knew the truth or something they should have known, they will start to avoid, rather feeling kinda fear and hate. Same thing goes to people in schools, friends and everyone else.Whoever knew them before may think they are good to be with , with confidences. But end up, feeling kind of dissappointed for what had happened.The one we think is fine, may end up the same way.

Too little amount of people get to go beyond this kind of limitation; fear for themselves to get in to a very confuse rather hard kind of situation.

Many of you which I guess this topic is not even new, but what the point of people still never realize what they are doing brings others' despression. And sometimes, things may not be what you think it is.

Not until the day you understand, it may be too late. Even the day comes, hopefully everythings still have a chances to go back to normal. At least.

The Untouchable.

It is a late night. After a late saturday dinner, i went home, looking for a cool drinks. I did really feel warm.. from the weather ? from my body? Or izit from my head, i can't tell. I really can't tell. At the moment i though it was the small bottle of bir i had during my dinner start to take its effect.

It take strenght for me to breath, feeling blur. Feeling tired but don't feel like sitting down. I took out my shirt, took a bath; but it doesn't help me to cool down. It seems like there are something, something that will make all the memory come back to me again. Start to think about stuff which happened , good and bad, terrible.

The pain of the memories are consuming my strenght, my heart start to feel hard again...

I tried my best to breath slowly, hold my hands together. In my mind, i was trying to stop thinking about anything, closing the door of the history of myself.

The make me feel better, since it was not a windy night, as everyone did , thinking or recall about all kinda happy and good memory i had. My friends, brothers , pet sis... all of them. Thinking about the one who teach me how to relax , how to play piano and the one who teach me how to smile. Took out my phone, look at all the pictures i took...

smile...

Start to realize that actually memory is the best and the most dangerous part of a person. It will be the best medic or the worst poision in our brain. There is no telling or we can't select what will become our memory or delete it away once it is there. All we can do is choose not to touch it anymore, to seal it up.

A strong memory guy may be the most depress guy ever. Guess it is the time people need to stop touch with all their old and rather sad memories. We want to be better; i promise to myself to be better and i will be better. Until the day the untouchable leave this world with my soul.

Outings 25/7/09

STILLLL , the same.

1. Sushi King.. ( not that much of tea this time)
2. Snooker center. ( Lol, 5-0, win win. Extra thing. The position of the view is really troublesome.
3. Cheese Cake~~
4. Red box~~~ ( good , sing until both also no voice..)

fren :" Hey , there will be a big misunderstanding if this picture is posted online... Send to me^^"
me :" Swt "
fren :" If i post it online, i will list there , me and my sis! "
me :" Why must you make fun of me?"
fren :" Okay ba, i put there me and my Bro"
me :" That sounds better.."
fren :" Okay , done! "
me :" There will be a big misunderstanding if this picture is posted online.."

Hahahahahahaha..........

5. Send her to KTM...

--END--

P.S : Can't post the picture yet, next week maybe ^^

Green, Grass of Home~

Wthell... lolx. It is thursday. Again , water shortage at our hostel...... SWT.

Looking for water , walked around the whole college area. We found it. Our BOSS' room, Mr David. Great. 5 of us, rushing upstair and went into his room like little kids once he opened the door.

Chat with him, all kinda stuff. Forgetting about taking a bath ( cause he have a big water tank in his block )..

I went into the room and realize there is a nice shining guitar placed beside his bed.

" David, you play guitar? "
" Yes, I can "
" Can you play now? Show off a bit. We wanna see you play."
"Alrite, come , lets go into the room."

David said his was getting old, and can't really remember all the notes and lyrics of the song. So he has to look at the music book while playing.

From the music he played.... the voice he sang... It shows to us all the age and years that passing by him. Time never stop.....
But still , without looking back, all of us.. singing along, happily, feeling there is nothing much to care at that moment, hoping tomorrow will be better.

The thinny voice of ours...
From David's room...
A soft famost old song...
A gang of 20+ plus kids and a 40+ man...

Haha... the "Dry" night is something different..

The old home town looks the same~
As I step down from the train~
And there to meet me is my mamma and my poppa~
Down the road I look, and there runs Mary~
Hair of gold and lips like cherries~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~

Yes, they'll all come to meet me, Arms areaching, smiling sweetly~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~

The old house is still standing,Though the paint is cracked and dry~
And there's that old oak tree, That I used to play on~
Down the lane I'll walk with my sweet Mary~
Hair of gold and lips like cherries~
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home~

Then I awake and look around me~
At the four gray walls that surround me~
And I realize .Yes I was only dreaming~
For there's a guard and a sad old padre~
Arm in arm we'll walk at daybreak~
Again I'll touch the green green grass of home~

Yes they'll all come to see me in the shade of that old oak tree~
As they lay me neath the green green grass of home~

Green, Green Grass of Home Tom Jones

The Starring Night~

Just like every weekdays. Me and my friend, Ah Lee were walking for dinner at mamak. There was less vehicle on the road , which make the whole street and area looks quite. It was kinda windy... cool. I was thinking it might be a very good evening which i may have a wonderful mood for dinner.

After both of us had our dinner , chatting , we realize that there are so many star in the sky, totally clear and bright. I see the SCORPIO, shining bright top on the sky. I feel excited...
Blood boiling flowing within me.

It is like the SCORPIO sign giving me strength..

Seriously i get lucky that night. My eyes turned sharp... And there are a evil smile on my face.

I ran out again at 3.30 midnight to the little hill behind my college, loooking up to the sky, facing the SCORPIO sign..

Standing on the top of the hill with a cross post, closing my eyes.. Listen to the cool wind ; it seems like i can hear the voice of people singing , and the music of the opera~

Screaming out loud in my heart... Madness.

My soul was away for moment before i come back to my senses.

Water dropping down... Raining.. is all dark in the wood, i can even feel my own breath. It is cold... very cold...

The ultimate release, and now i was all in fear, walking slowly down the hill. I can't believe I am actually kinda enjoying the rain, at the same time hoping I never see anything unnecessary..

Alright, can't get to see anything in the sky anymore, went back to my hostel , everyone else slept , took my bath , took a 4 hours rest...

And from what crazy things i did, it is out of expectation , lose of my senses...
But sometime people should take a chances to do what they really wanted or feel like doing.
Without any second of delay , without any moment of considering , doing things which they don't even know what will it gonna be...

There is no point living life without taking few chances. Who knows life , may just more than being in life.

I love the night.

COMPLETE DOR!

Finally complete!! haha. 3 little thingy , finally finished. Now just about the packing. ^^

Lolx, long time never do such things , hurt my own hand during the process.

Very happy , Very happy!!!!

Hope my friend will like it ^^

Against

You know some people in the world is really weird. My best friend told me its normal. That many of them have many faces, and some of them don't even realize their own.

Lucky i were "trained" to be relax.. forget bout it... just be myself .... do my own stuff... lolx

It is really hard stuff, to hold and getting though it, even it looks easy when i put my smile on my face most the time.

Be cool. I done my part , they failed to do theirs'. All i would do is to see what will happen as time comes. ^^

Be strong.. No matter what is the challege, Before my life is Over, i will face it , i will take it up.
And finally realize , this is me , the true "me" .

Say :" cheese!! ^^